Why 12 Children?!...??...!!..?? !! Reason no. 3.. Religious Implications:
From an early age, I set out to find out about God.. Jesus.. The Bible.. morality,,, what was wanted... if anything: by God.. or whoever... and my mom was always discussing things with me... family, marriage.. her experience in life... how it was to have 10 children.. what else she might have wanted to do... the possibility of ..abortion.. what kind of birth control there was at the time (i.e.... crossing one's legs on the right day?)...
then I met and married a fellow student from the Bible school, which thing I attended... a year after graduating from high school. And we were both religious zealots... who learned how to brain wash ourselves.. I swear to god that that is true... and probably needed some humane intervention (god-ly intervention was seemingly futile...)...
and on top of all this... you know.. not trusting birth control.. and being very moral about.. going through with the pregnancy.. being subserviant to the man (albeit because of some unnatural force and trauma(s) that really underlined the conditions of the "marriage".. indentured slave-hood... whatever)...
and then, I was feeling very insecure about the way the world was going in general.. very concerned that God was going to do something nasty.. like what happened to Soddom and Gommorrah.. very seriously like (come on: I was living with a psychotic man..)... and.. I had a conversation with god... or jesus.. or.. whoever.. and sort of made a pact: an agreement.. like Abraham did with the angels who were on their way to determine whether Soddom and Gommorrah needed to be destroyed.
and Abraham reasoned with those angels... and came up with the figure of 10 souls: if there were 10 righteous souls... that the angels would spare the cities for the sake of the ten souls. and so, I was willing to do that: to try to secure 10 righteous souls, to save the world.. or .. the city I live in.. any way... looks like jesus added 2 for good measure.. and.. thus far, thus good... it seems to be working. that is reason no. 3.:>
