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It was a very long day.  But a productive day.  Ex#2 does a lot of odds and ends for his neighbor.  They are older people and can't do a lot.  He called me over this morning and asked if I would come and help him and afterwards we would go take some pictures.  Bring some clothes to change in to.  To make a long story short, I spent 3/4 of the day outside working in two yards.  Drinking water the entire time.  Working my ass off.  I don't mind doing that, not at all.  But I got dehydrated.  Dehydrated to the point that I ended up with a severe headache that would not go away.  No amount of food or drink would ease it.  I ended up having to take an ibuprofin to ease it. 
No one got testy today.  I was able to control my actions.  We even joked with each other several times.  Progress?  Yeah, I think so.  Not going to hold my breath though.  I didn't even get pissy about not going out to take pictures. 
 
So how was your day?


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  • secretlife said on Mar 26, 2007....
    it's really nice of you and he to help out the neighbors!
     
    my Sunday was busy.  church and sunday school (i teach 8th grade)...we had our Easter party because there's no class for the next two weeks....
     
    Then i drove my daughters to work at my brother's store....40 mn each way-
     
    And i came home and had to force my son to write a paper....and had to sit with him and help....
     
    i'm glad you had a good day despite the headache.
    you're doing much better....i like this new attitude you have!
  • openclose said on Mar 26, 2007....
    Sounds like you had a really busy day.  Even though mine was busy I really enjoyed it.  We have always helped the neighbor out.  She has always been there for us.  She even offered for me to come live with her for a while after my episode in August. 
    I remember having to sit with my kids and force them to do their homework.  I'm glad I don't have to do that anymore.
    Yes, I like this new attitude of mine also!  Though it scares me a little.  Waiting for the other shoe to drop, so to speak.  But I feel like I am a bit more prepared it this time.
    And thank you so much for your kind words and support.  It really helps to hear from people I don't know say that I'm doing good!!
  • secretlife said on Mar 26, 2007....
    you know yourself that there will be good days and bad days always-
    but there is power in believing in yourself and in your ability to make yourself happy.
    it's ok to be a bit cautious.  but it's like when you start working out....at first you are so tired and sore...but over time you build up muscles and get stronger and stronger....i see you building muscles!
  • openclose said on Mar 27, 2007....
    I'm glad you see that.  Most of the time I see it too.
    This morning has not been pleasant so far.  I had a series of strange, not so good dreams last night.  I called ex#2 this morning to try to get in touch with the real world and he cut me off.  He called back 30 minutes later, while I was in the shower.  I called him back and he asked if I was okay, I told him no.  Then all I heard about was what all he had to do today.  Why can't he give me just 5 minutes, that's all I needed.  And yes, I told him this. 
    I keep telling myself over and over and over this morning that this is not going to get me down.  I'm going to be okay. I WILL have a good day and I WILL be positive today.  Then there is this little voice that keeps saying give it back to him.  Let him see what it feels like to be put off.  But I keep saying no, that is not right, be the bigger person.  What is important to you is not important to anyone else.  You had a bad morning.  Just because you woke up with your face and pillow wet from tears doesn't mean that he cares about that or understands it.  I can't help but wonder sometimes if all of this is my punishment for leaving him.
     
    I WILL have a good day,  I WILL be positive today,
    I WILL have a good day,  I WILL be positive today,
    I WILL have a good day,  I WILL be positive today,
    I WILL have a good day,  I WILL be positive today,
    I WILL have a good day,  I WILL be positive today,
    I WILL have a good day,  I WILL be positive today.
     
     
  • secretlife said on Mar 27, 2007....
    wouldn't it be great if our partners were compassionate listeners? 
    yes, i know what you mean about needing just 5 minutes.  i think some men believe that they can actually make us feel better by chattering on and on about themselves....maybe take our minds off of us, when that's not what we need at all.
     
    it's not a punishment.  honest.
     
    hoping your day is good.
  • openclose said on Mar 27, 2007....
    I know exactly what you mean.  Or maybe because the subject is so uncomfortable to them that they avoid it?
    My day was really crappy.  I'm still at work.  I've been busy all day and getting frustrated with what I was trying to do.  I"ve gotten up and walked away several times.  Ex#2 has been avoiding me like the plague today.  I wasn't overly friendly to him, but then I wasn't to anyone else either.  Just one of those blah days that we are all allowed to have now and then.  He just thinks that when I have a blah day I'm having one of my episodes.  It's difficult for him to differentiate.
    Only 30 minutes to go then I'm heading home.
     
    Hope you are having a good day.

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