Boss Lady just knocked on my door a few minutes ago. She wanted to give me my pay for this week and lend me a movie that she had just watched. She went on and on about what a beautiful movie it was and that I just had to see it. This is the first time she has ever done such a thing. I've been here for six months. The tension between us seems to have eased up a bit. It may only be temporary, but it hasn't been this relaxed in a long time. I'm wondering if it has anything to do with the decision I made to leave. (She doesn't know about it yet).
This reminds me a little of when I left my marriage. I was planning my departure for a long time without telling my husband what was on my mind. In the time leading up to me taking the decision, there were so many things he did to piss me off. Then, after I had taken the decision (but still hadn't told him... I ended up basically running away from home), things chilled out, and we actually started getting along pretty well. If I was basing my decision soley on how well we were getting on at the time, I might have changed my mind about leaving. But I knew that I wanted out of the marriage, and so I left anyway. It just would have been so much easier to leave if I were still angry with him.
I wonder how long this truce will last with Boss Lady. When I finally tell her that I'm leaving, will all the wind be out of my sails? If it is, will I have a hard time justifying my move and letting her know that I'll require her to double my salary if she wants me to keep working for her? I have to stick to the facts when I make my case. Just because we get along for a little while now doesn't change the fact of the way things have been for the last six months and the way they would undoubtedly continue to be if I stayed. It sure would be easier if she'd keep being a bitch, though. Sigh. Any insights?
