17 December 2006

I moved away from my parents' house in August and go to another town, 45 minutes by car from them.

When I did it, I was having a sorta long-distance relatioship with a guy living in L.A.

I met my neighbour, a nice guy who splitted with his girlfriend more or less 6 month before I met him. We started having dinner together and watching tv and we went on very well together.. to be short, we became a couple and we're now almost living together.I broke with the guy I was with and, after an exchange of emails and calls we stopped every contact.In the meanwhile, my relation with the other guy went on. And I started feeling a big affection for him.Up to the point I decide I had to take the pill so that we can have intimacy without condoms and fears.I went to the doctor yesterday and -- for coincidence -- my period arrived a few days in advance... so this mornig I run to take the pills-To my big surprise, I found an email from the guy in my e-mail box today

Like a blitz in the sky

I was sure I was never going to hear from him again so I was shockedI repliednow I am waitingI'm anxiousI don't know what he wants. I don't know if he's asking me back. I don't know what I should do.but I cannot dany the fact that he's still deep in my heartand the guy I'm with now.. well, I don't feel what I felt for MY V ...

That was completely different. Plus, he's been my FIRST man.

And the second person I have ever kissed in my life...(And I don't even remember the name of the first one... I was in Miami and it was just an occasional meeting in a bar and I was not liking him particularly...It was just for doing it, since I was 21 and I was never been kissed before.. )