Wed, 15 Feb 2006 18:54:46 -0800 (PST)-----
My love,
My heart is hurting, I only wish you can see the pain
I've caused myself. I long to be in your arms again and feel
your soft and delicate kisses. I know that will happen,
but I wish you all the love and happiness I want for
myself.
v....
Wed, 15 Feb 2006 18:59:03 -0800 (PST)
Do you know how much I crave you? Do you know how much I
yearn for you? I know our love is beautiful and pure, but
it's also wild and hungry. And I know at night you fill
my dreams and fantasies. Nothing bends my will like the
thought of being in your arms, or you being next to meLove,
Vladimir. No one can command my body or destroy my will
like the touch of your skin. Tonight, as every night, I
shall be dreaming about you, your lips on my neck, your
hands on shoulders, your waist resting on my thighs, and all
the while your eyes on my heart.
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Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:23:51 -0800 (PST)
My sweetest love,
Never have I felt the loneliness that creeps up into my
life the longer you are away from me. The moment of your
departure tore my world into thousands of pieces. Here I
am holding on to the little hope that you'll soon be with
me. Being separated from you has my life in turmoil. Not
seeing you, not hearing you, and not being able to caress
you is so painful that it hurts deep in my heart and
soul. The only cherised things left by you are the recording
of your sweet voice and your pictures. But the most
important is the promise given to me on that sad day of your
departure. The promise that you'll wait for me to make our
lives become one. No tears can replace the emptiness left
by you, but my love for you is stronger than the miles
that separate us. One year away from you is complete agony.
I wait for you with open arms my love till the day of
your return.
I love you deeply,
Spoiled with Love
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Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:30:35 -0800 (PST)
Dear Diary
It is due to a gorgeous woman that I've become the man I
am today. She might not comprehend how much I care about
her, but never the less here I am attempting to get my
point across. I see many things in her that I was unable to
see in any other girl. Her beauty surpasses that of all
women combined, as the shine of her eyes matches that of
the moon and stars. Her essence is one to bring forth
another Trojan War if anyone would take her from me. Her
smile comforts me, as she reflects happiness and enjoyment.
Her body is one to admire; one to fulfill the eyes of any
man with pleasure and desire. How lucky has god made me
to have held her in my arms. The way I have kissed those
sweet lips and the way my hands have touched her. Those
are the reasons why I believe in God.
She also has a personality that enchanted me. Her way of
thinking matches all of my expectations. Her character is
strong and full of sarcasm, nothing I can't handle. I
love everything about her, she is worth it. She possesses a
low level of cruelty, which she divides among people,
without affecting me. I like her strong character, it
eliminates competition. Her intelligence attracts me, as she
teaches me many things every time I talk to her. What's
there not to like about her? What's there not to desire
about her? The girl of whom I'm referring to is busy
finishing reading this letter, as my mind wonders when I will see
her again.
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Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:36:59 -0800 (PST)
Time is slowly passing by, and thoughts of you are
constantly hovering over me. I miss you more than you will ever
know. I wish you peace and some form of sanity while you
are away, and know you have always been loved. I remember
every moment with you, and would never trade for anything
in the world.
You are beautiful, beautiful my friend. You have brought
tremendous light into my life, and above all laughter. I
thank you for all you've said and done, and you will
always be remembered and loved. Your youth, resilience, and
capacity to love unconditionally is appreciated. I want to
say your love is written in the stars... Appreciate
yourself, and never give up.
Things are hard, and always will be- just remember truth
above all, and give love always. Thank you for loving me.
All my love,
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Wed, 15 Feb 2006 19:44:11 -0800 (PST)
My Love,
We attempted to hide beneath the shadow that linked us
together. However, on the day that shadow left, the moon
rose above us and eliminated the shadow that strong
crescent sun had created. And underneath the moonlight we bathed
in happiness, forgetting that the sun was bound to rise
tomorrow. For the sun will rise everyday and the shadow
shall never leave. So what shall one do?
You can not live with neither the sun nor the moon. So
how can one choose between night and day? You would assume
that the answer of that is to leave both the sun and
moon. But what happens when you shut the moon and the sun out
of your life?
Simple, there is no life. Your soul shall always drift
and never be complacent. You will find substitutes for the
sun and the moon, but you will never feel as alive as you
do now. As in the XY/XX, you will be settling and never
truly be happy.
Wouldn't it be great if the sun and the moon could both
rise at the same time and bless one with there grace
simultaneously? But do you remember what happened when we both
attempted to shine at the same time. CHAOS ! And
ironically the sun and the moon come from the same galaxy, and we
both orbit around the same planet.
I guess I'm not making anything anymore clear to you and
I'm not telling you something that you don't already now.
However, I do want to tell you that you have been burned
by the sun sufficient times and if you allow the moon to
entice you with it gentle embrace, then you adapt to live
with out the sun. Isn't that what human survival based
on? Adaptation and survival? All I can tell you is that at
least with me you have a chance to live because I care
about you and will take care of you...
love v
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Wed, 15 Feb 2006 20:26:15 -0800 (PST)
I sometimes look at us as a wartime love story. Something
right from a movie actually. Like the "English Patient".
Two people from different worlds, different cultures, and
coming together as man and woman in the middle of wartime
Baghdad; we have been through rocket and mortar attacks
and we have shared heated passion together. Two people,
two different worlds. Yet we still feel the same through
distance and time. I will always want to feel the softness
of your fingertips, the kiss of your lips and the feeling
of being close to you while we create passion for days.
I want to make you scream from desire. I want to feel
your beautiful hair falling all around me, see the glow of
your skin in the moonlight, hear the soft whisper of your
voice, and smell the sea air from the open window while
you are gently rocking with me. I want to delight in
tasting the food you cook. I want to watch you get dressed in
the morning light.
I feel good that your feelings are the same. I hope they
stay the same, I really do. I want to believe it.
Remember when I was telling you that I am different? You had
some doubts because you have heard that before. Well, I have
heard before from a woman that she loved me so very much,
and she was crazy about me, and it will never change for
her. She said that we will always be together. I believed
it because it seemed so good at the time and I wanted to
believe it. I want to believe it now, with you. Do you
believe it?
I showed you I was different. Are you different too? Tell
me you are. Promise me and I will promise you that I will
always be there no matter how many kilometers separate us
and whoever you and I will be together with in our
separate lives; you can count on me
that I will be there for you. You will always have
somebody; you will never be alone.
Your's, V
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Wed, 15 Feb 2006 20:48:48 -0800 (PST)
I have never been so scared in my life, to think that you--------
are on the verge of losing someone you LOVE you feel like
you don't have the strength anymore. I often cry myself
to sleep wishing that you would hold me so tight and never
let go and promise that everything would be alright.
I LOVE you with my whole being, and I remember that I
made a vow to LOVE you for as long as I shall live and I
meant it. I can't imagine life without you, the thought of
your touch that makes my whole body shiver, the love that
you giving me day by day makes me look forward to a brand
new day, every second that we spent together in Miami
will always be cherished in my heart. Moments go by, days go
by but memories of you and I will never leave this heart
of mine.
Every time you held me close to your body I felt a
connection that is very powerful and strong and it's a kind of
a connection that would move mountains and cross the
deepest oceans, for you cause there is nothing I wouldn't do
for you cause you are my ANGEL...
Lets take it from here and never go back on what happened
in the past lets never dwell on the past cause the past
might destroy what we have achieved so far. I LOVE you
ANGEL and I wish that you would never doubt that.
Written with Love and with tears running down from my
eyes.
Love, V
Wed, 15 Feb 2006 20:56:25 -0800 (PST)
I can't describe her. Maybe if I was one of those poetic
types I could come almost close, but I don't think anyone
ever will. She's an angel with demon eyes or maybe the
other way around. She's hot and cold and poison and sugar
and light and dark and soft and hard and wonderful and
terrible and bitter and sweet but always beautiful. She is
the innocent flower and at the same time the serpent under
it.
Obsession. That's a good word for her. She is obsession.
She's like a broken doll. Perfect but entirely f----up.
No one seems to understand that they have to be careful
with her or they'll break her all over again. She's barely
holding together as it is. I love you and I can't stand
it. I want to tell her. I can't tell her. I don't know
how. She's heard it all before. I wish I could have been the
first to tell her any of these things, but of course
other people fell under her spell before I did. Everyone
does. I don't think I'll ever really warm her up. I feel cold
and lonely without her. Like there's a part of me
missing, and it's only been maybe six hours.
I told her I'd never leave her. I wonder if she believes
me. I didn't want to tell her. I never saw a point. Maybe
I'm not good enough for her, so why even bother? Except
five days with her constantly by my side was enough to
make my heart want to burst open. It almost did. I had to
tell her. I told her. She knew. I think she knows
everything. I think she knows me better than I do. Like her eyes
can read my soul like a book. I'm not sure if she's real.
Why do I get to dream of her? No one else with ever be
Queen in my mind.
V
