Today, started out as any day. I went to work early, got 40 plus messages in my inbox, checked all of them.
But this isn't any other day. I was surprised that a former classmate of mine back in high school sent me an email and invited me to become one of his friends in friendster. I was surprised because he did that. His name is Rain. Rain was a guy I both hated and liked. I hated him back in high school because we competed for the top rank at the class, and I liked him at the same time because even though how much I tried hating him, he is still a great guy, a kind hearted one at that. I was surprised that we hit it off immediately and we promised each other to exchange messages and that he was filled with regrets because of something. He'll text me later this 9 pm. He has classes today. [He's in law school now]. And I've got a feeling that its something about the two of us, not that there was something between us, I think.
Then minutes later, Eric, my teammate, one of my closest friends here in the office, told me that he was resigning. What. Are you sure you are not kidding. Yes, and he even told me the company that he was moving to. I never expected that. I thought we were going to finish the project together. Oh well. And I was the first person that he told. He'll tell our boss later. For that I'm a bit depressed today. Why, because he's my friend and his leaving earlier than expected. I'm sad that we won't get into those bickering and joking online. I'm sad that we never got to finish the project together. He told me that it is probably his last day today. I'm sad, and I want to cry not only because I'm going to miss a friend, but I'm also one man short of the project.
Now, I'm sad because I feel the burden of being the temporary lead. I want to cry but I can't. I can't work today because of what I'm feeling. I just want to relax and sort out these feelings. I just want to slack today. I need this day. Just give me this day. Tomorrow, I'll be okay. I'm still going to work, just like any other ordinary day, but today, just give me this day. Please.
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I'm okay now. I think I can deal with it. I'm just gonna relax and sooth my muscles. I wish cologne guy was here, but he is absent too. hmm...
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I think I want to kill somebody here! LOL. Eric told me at lunch time that he was just kidding. The bastard, and here I was near tears. Grrrr... Oh well. At least he's not leaving sooner.
Feeling a little duped,
dazed
dazed_and_confused posted on Mar 04, 2007
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yani said on Mar 04, 2007....
gotcha!
:) good to know everything turned up well.
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 05, 2007....
yeah I know.... I'm gonna kill that man! :D LOL. Oh by the way, Eric was the guy I woke up next to last Xmas party! LOL. sheesh.
I'm okay now. But I'm still wondering what the heck Rain and I are going to talk about tonight... I'm a little nervous. I hope he doesn't tell me that he liked me all these years and that he is planning to do something about it. gulp {{nervous}}
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Lioness said on Mar 05, 2007....
Haha, what a way to start your day.
Do you think I should send wreaths already? What's his name again? Mention the correct spelling please. LOL
Maybe he was expecting tears would flow like river in your office. Duh, just trying to be funky. I think I am starting a flu here. Oh my...
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 05, 2007....
hahahah! :D Actually I was the only one that he joked about his leaving... arrgggg.... thankfully I held back goodness.... I'm gonna kill that guy!
hmmm... you wanna start an epidemic? :D haha...
I'm a little nervous about Rain though.... hmm... I mean... I like him but I dunno....Ah, maybe its just my imagination...
Now a bit confused,
dazed
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Lioness said on Mar 05, 2007....
Naughty guy.. He thinks it's Dec. 28 huh?
No, a pandemic is more like it! lol
Rain, nice name. Cool girl, tell us about it okay? {{{dying to hear some romantic news}}} ahhemmm =)
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 05, 2007....
hahah.... actually I remember a time when I was so annoyed at him because he was so nice... he was actually tolerating all the teasing about the two of us back in high school, and we even got so close when we belong to the same team, and to my horror my classmates made us sit together in the van. arrrgg... but I guess its the past.
I'll post more later... I'm editing the conversation to exclude my name. I'm in no mood to code today :D LOL. Thanks to Eric!
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silverwhisper said on Mar 05, 2007....
OK, that was just mean of eric.
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queenparanoia said on Mar 05, 2007....
naku huli nanaman ako.....siht talaga...anyway gago naman ng eric na yun!!! hehehehehehehehe pero in fairness uyyyy. nadepressed ka anu??? grabe kilig tuloy ako...nood ka na lang movie ni sam milby at ni toni gonzaga. alam ko medyo baduy at jologs yung movie pero in fairness maeenjoy mo talaga. nakarelate nga ako sa story eh!!!grabe haba ng hair mo day another guy??? naku buti nga yun at marami kang pagpipilian.uyyyy smile naman dyan!!! -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 05, 2007....
ed. Yup eric was kinda mean telling that to me... I don't know, but something kinda stirred. Oh well.... LOL.
queen. Okay, I'll try to watch that movie. LOL. yup, there is a new guy... but I think we are just friends... I think.
Just came from a nauseating headache,
dazed
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queenparanoia said on Mar 05, 2007....
dazed: get well soon! just have a massage from cologne guy! -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 06, 2007....
hahha. thanks girl. unfortunately cologne guy isn't also around because he has the flu... :D -
Lioness said on Mar 06, 2007....
my pandemic is starting! lol
good thing I bounced back soon as it totally hit me. geez
how was it with Rain? *wink*
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 06, 2007....
hahah... Rain and I had a very interesting talk last night, and he eventually asked me if i wanted to hangout this summer. {{wink}}
Cheers.
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Lioness said on Mar 06, 2007....
whoah... it looks like summer is gonna be an enjoyable time for both of you! Hmmm...... it's good having some things to look forward to, except the heat, sweat, and all. lol -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 06, 2007....
hahah... I wonder how jason would feel about it.... wait, he doesn't have to know right. Its not as if we are exclusively dating right? right? hahahah.....
yup, I'm a little curious as to how he is today. I mean we both used to be the biggest nerds back in campus. Oh yeah, last night he kept on commenting on how I bloomed over the past few years, and we were even treading on my ex as a topic. Yup, I knew it, the ex was really evil, with a capital e hahahah... just kidding.
Cheers.
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queenparanoia said on Mar 06, 2007....
yeah tell jason about him!!!! i wonder what his eactions may be...
day grabe haba talaga buhok mo!!!
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 06, 2007....
he actually knows that a lot of guys are after me.... that is why whenever we are together, he makes it a point that I know what his intentions are. he also makes it a point to send me a message every now and then.
hahaha.... oo mahaba talaga... hahahah.. literally.
Cheers
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Lioness said on Mar 06, 2007....
Oh well, it seems like getting together all over again but in a much much mature level. Gone were the days of competition and everything... Move over Jason.
I'm sorry, but I have to mimic you: "too many guys, too little you" lol
Choose the best girl! =)
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 06, 2007....
hahaha :D Yup, I guess so. Too many guys, so little me. LOL.
And you know what, this guy has a lot of promise. He's in law proper now. Nice huh. :D Anyways, yup we are quite matured now. I like talking to him a lot. In fact we were exchanging ym's earlier.
Of course, I will try my best to choose. Though i don't really know if Rain has some plans about us. Only time will tell I guess.
Cheers.
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Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
Hmmm... he sounds yummier to me than Jason.. lol (okay, okay, simply because he has brains..)
Ok, let the life's flow take you to where you are destined to be. Fatalist ba? Haha.. Anyway, enjoy life dazed. It has much to offer. =)
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
yeah, I remember you saying that you prefer men with brains! LOL.
Yup, let it come. hahaha.... Fatalist? Slight!
I don't know which is yummier though... lol. Well I still have Kenneth to consider. LOL...Oops, did I just say Kenneth? hahah... Yup I did. {{wink}}
As I said too many boys, so little me.
Cheers
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Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
Hmmm... Not really the brainy, scholarly ones. Just those with common sense and sense of humor (puro sense, may sense pa ba sensnasabi ko?)
Isn't that cute, you are a gift to men, for their eyes only, because you would eventually "belong" to only one. (borrrriiiingggg) lol
dazed ha, mukhang may mapagpipilian ka na for each letter of the alphabet! dati Jason, now Kenneth... hmmm.... ang sarap maging girlash!
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
Not boring. LOL. Yup, I actually prefer men who I can really talk to. I am easily bored with men who knows nothing aside from flexing those muscles. Big turn off for me. As long as he can make me laugh and listen, then, he's on my list.
Kenneth is a guy who asked me if he could court me, its in one of my post! :D
I'll try to enumerate the guys that somewhat I've become involved with... hmmm...
Cheers
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queenparanoia said on Mar 07, 2007....
hay naku dazed as my friend says... collect and select!!! select the best for you!!! -
Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
Flexing muscles!! Wowoweee... I initially thought knuckles. hahaha.. If I may add, not the jealous type! haha...
Oh.. Kenneth.. that Kenneth.. teka, di mo yun type eh! lol
hi queen..........muahhhhh
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
ahm kenneth and new guy are different ha. :D LOL. Now I'm causing confusion among people! :D LOL
yup, queen. Collect and collect then Select... hey can I collect some more when I already have my selection? LOL.
Hi Lioness. Nope I don't like the jealous type. And I also don't like arrogant,dominant, and overbearing men, well except in bed of course... A girl could use a guy who is dominant and knows what he wants in the deed of course,... rar! But other than that, no to arrogant men.
Cheers!
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Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
I get you.. Who's that again? lol
Hey, you are speaking my mind out about guys! Hahaha. I will rephrase the overbearing with agressive (sounds more seductive) in bed. lol.. You know what you get with men like those? Scratches, hematomas, marks, and sore lips. =)
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
hahah.... I know what you mean! :D there was one time I was making out with this guy, and what I got what was sore lips and "singaws". Ouch!
Not to mention hickeys. LOL. But that was fun! And what did the guy receive in return... scratches! rawr! just kidding!
Cheers!
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queenparanoia said on Mar 07, 2007....
dazed: ngek may singaw??? grabe naman nun!!! -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
yup. you bet. paano kasi nanggigigil kaya nakakagat dila ko. huhuhu... After that I was out of breath heheheh....
Cheers.
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Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
hahahaaaah..... queen, someday, you'll know what dazed is talking about. =) naku ha, grabe na yan, baka mahilig sa lengwa kaya ka nakakagat. LOL -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
tapos may stud pa sa dila. san ka pa di ba! :D hay naku talaga. may time naman na sobrang namula yung paligid ng lips ko. hay. buti na lang gabi na nun.
malay natin, mas magaling pa sa kin si queen noh! :D LOL
Cheers!
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Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
Curious me sa piercing na yan eh... Baka ok ring kakiss yan! Hahaha... Pasencia na, noti lang talaga me. Hay naku, maswerte nga lang pwedeng takpan ang lips pag may injury... yung paligid? Hay.... lip balm! =)
Naku, mukhang she is learning nga...... -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
hahah... actually madulas at malamig pag may piercing! :D LOL. Okay lang yun no. I don't mind being naughty today. Magandang pam pacool ng ulo. :D Ang paligid? Concealer at foundation!!! LOL
And the guy even told me that I was a good kisser. Oops! San nanggaling yun? {{blushes}}. Kaya ayun tuwing nagkikita kami dati, wala na kaming ginawa kundi magmakeout ng magmakeout! LOL. Those were the days...
Cheers!
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Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
Tama, salamat po cosmetics! lol
Wow, good kisser huh.. Believe it girl! Bakit ganon, may guy dati, sabi niya good kisser daw siya, it's supposed to be yummy. Tapos not naman ako nag-enjoy! Hay naku......... Ok lang magmake-out, pampatanggal stress. hahahha
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 07, 2007....
oo salamat sa cosmetics at sa cyencya... Dr. Belo yohooo?! LOL.
hahah... sabagay hindi lang naman cya ang nagsabi nun. Oops again. Pero I don't claim to be one. Let the partners testify or dispute that one. LOL. haah... ganun? Hindi ka nagenjoy? Bakit it feel like you were kissing a cod fish? malaway at messy? hahahaha
yup it is a nice activity though! Anyone wanna make out with me? Just kidding.
Cheers!
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Lioness said on Mar 07, 2007....
Yoohhooo.. Hahaha, wag na, baka di tayo pumasa sa screening ng belomed. Hehehehe...
Hay naku, sabi ko nga, pag iba nagsabi, believe it noh... And more often than not, lahat ng makakahalikan mo, ganun ang sasabihin...
Icky naman the malaway... Hmmp, kadiri, lol. Dry siya, tapos parang walang effort? Mas ok yung smooth, soft lips and wiggly tongue. hahahahaha... With matching agressiveness.
Naku, ayokong mangumbida muna, baka madala ako! Kasi mahirap pigilan pag papunta na dun! hahahahaha.........
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dazed_and_confused said on Mar 08, 2007....
yuk dry? ay naku para naman atang poste ang partner mo. Oo lips that are soft and smooth, panalo yun.
Hahah... mahirap bang magpigil? :D LOL.
cheers
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queenparanoia said on Mar 08, 2007....
hahahaha grabe kayo! anyway nakahalik na po ako ng lalaki hindi nga lang french kiss pero okay na yun.masarap pala. hanggang ngayon feel ko pa rin ang soft lips nya...hayyyyyyyy......kaya lang turned down nya ako =(pero okay na ako naka move on na =) -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 08, 2007....
hi queen! awwwwww..... asan yung lalaking yun, sasabunutan namin! lol
wow, he has soft lips huh. You know, the first time that I french kissed a guy, I panicked and I got so cold. hahah... The first time was pretty bad. But the succeeding ones, boy was I ever the seductress! LOL. Just kidding.
Well its good to know that you have moved on. You deserve so much better dear.
{{ you hear me turn-queen-down guy! lol, want a punch in the gut? LOL}} Just making you smile queen!
Just came back from the elevator from hell,
dazed
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queenparanoia said on Mar 09, 2007....
grabe elevator from hell?? teka basahin ko post mo mamya... -
dazed_and_confused said on Mar 09, 2007....
hahah. wala pa akong post tungkol dun. I'll probably post it on monday together with updates with Rain.
Cheers
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