queenparanoia's tags:
oh crap...
 
oh holy crap...
 
this is what i really hate about my life...
 
a few weeks ago i'm ranting about having no boyfriend, that no one loves me and i'm jealous that other people has boyfriends and i have no one.
 
and then when i'm finally over that, where i'm finally accpeting that its okay to be alone. that its okay if i dont have a boyfriend. that its okay if no one loves me in a romantic way...
 
cupid's arrow finally hit me.
 
that asshole...
 
yup here i am again falling for someone. ugh. i hate it. he's not that even good looking i'm not even attracted to him physically.
 
but...
 
i know myself well enough that i know...
 
i'm falling once again...
 
and i'm preparing for an another heartache...
 
i really hate this feeling.
 
a feeling that maybe there is still hope that he will like me back but in the back of your mind you know reality is. love is not for me. and i'm okay with that. its just hard to accep it...
 
arghhhhhhh... i wanna binge eat!!!!


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  • dailyachesandpains said on Feb 26, 2007....
    Queen!
    Don't set yourself up for failure at love!  Think POSITIVE thoughts about this.  Take it slooooooow. 
    {{{Hugs}}}
    Daily
  • secretlife said on Feb 26, 2007....

    ok, this calls for a binge WALK.....or better yet queen, a binge DANCE!

    don't forget to love yourself queen!  the rest, i promise, will fall into place all by iteself!

     

  • queenparanoia said on Feb 26, 2007....
    thanks daily, thanks secret...
     
    well its midnight here i might as well sleep on it. arghhhh i cant help thinking about him!!!!!!!!!!!
     
    well at least i could think of him while i... you know do the deed.
     
    LOL!!!
  • silverwhisper said on Feb 26, 2007....
    queen, isn't it a bit early to start preparing for heartbreak before even getting involved w/ someone? couldn't you at least enjoy the beginnings of a relationship first? :>

    btw, i was chuckling at "that asshole".

    ed
  • yani said on Feb 26, 2007....

    Queen: why do you think he wouldn't like you?

                  you're fun to be with. you're sweet. you're caring.

                  i mean, how well does the guy knows you?

  • Lioness said on Feb 26, 2007....
    Hi queen!! It's funny how we get attracted to someone and yet see the doom of that attraction before it even blooms.

    There are certain reasons for this, and if I am wrong, then tell us what it is:

    1) He has a girlfriend (ok.. fine)
    2) He is married (you don't fall for that, but I did. Oh my, not again!)
    3) He's the only available guy in the group (geez)
    4) A friend of yours is also eyeing him (yummy, yum yum.. hehehe)
    5) He's courting one of your friends (ouch!)

    Well???

    Hi yani! {{waving}}
  • dazed_and_confused said on Feb 26, 2007....
    Hi everybody...

    Just like you I was afraid of that impending heartbreak even though anything could ever bloom.

    Sometimes I'm afraid to risk falling because I'm afraid of rejection. {{I have a huge ego that is why! hahaha}}

    What could be the reason that you think what you're feeling is bound to be doomed? Please do tell us! :D

    Cheers.
  • queenparanoia said on Feb 26, 2007....

    why am i preparing for another heartache? because i just recently received an information that he is courting someone. and here i am. eventhough how hard i try i still fall in love. eventhough i think love is full of shit!!!

    i just hope that what i feel for him is just a phase.

    ed: cupid is indeed an asshole.

  • dazed_and_confused said on Feb 26, 2007....
    hmmm... that is indeed quite a predicament queen. Cupid is indeed an asshole. LOL. Want me to get a sack and place him in there. You get the baseball bat and whack him like a mobster LOL {{just making you laugh}}

    Oh well, there are other fish in the sea queen. Here's to cupid!!! {{getting a sack right now}}

    Cheers!
  • mom said on Feb 26, 2007....
    Oh my goodness, you are falling for someone?  Dammit, you got to kill the guy, if you don't he might like you back.  Yikes! 
     
    It's a heartache, nothing but a heartache
    gets you when it's too late,
    gets ya when your dowwwwwwwwn.
  • Lioness said on Feb 26, 2007....
    dazed, rejection is scary!!!!

    It's funny how the innocently stupid cupid is blamed for all your woes queen! hurry dazed, before it's too late! I think cupid needs tongue bashing and lashing!

    queen, his attraction towards someone else does not mean you have to resign from stalking... err.. liking, no..chasing... bad... pursuing (perfect!) your man. As they say, it's not over until it's over. Don't just wait in a corner.. You have to do things too..

    {{Strutting with mom}}}


  • queenparanoia said on Feb 26, 2007....

    well let just wait and see if whatever happens between me and him. i just hope that he will notice me too!!!

  • mom said on Feb 27, 2007....
    Queenie-  what you got to do so he will notice you, is trip him in the hallway and then fall on top of him :)
  • CreativeWoman said on Feb 27, 2007....
    I hope it all works out how you want it to.

    CW
  • yani said on Feb 27, 2007....
    lol mom! she's crazy queen, never listen to her :)
     
    tripping him is a good idea though, just don't trip on top of, you'll kill the poor man.
     
    pick him up by the collar, push him into a corner and give him lots of smoochies hehehehe
     
    he'll never forget you, I swear! :)
     
    no seriously, do something! it's not like they are on already. There's still hope.
     
    {{ hugs }}
  • queenparanoia said on Feb 27, 2007....

    mom: that would be a great idea! although i dobt it if he could carry a overwieght girl like me!

     

    yani: ive tried that before. yup! i kissed the guy turned out he broke my heart! huhuhuhuhuhuhhu

    anyway good thing i didn't saw him today! or i might be a lovey dovey fool again!

  • silverwhisper said on Feb 27, 2007....
    queen: so he's courting someone else. that doesn't mean diddly-squat. he might not be successful there, after all.

    ed
  • MsBradford07 said on Feb 27, 2007....
    Relax, girl, it is going to be okay.
  • mom said on Feb 27, 2007....
    Queen- WOW  breathe, inhale, now out with a nice cleansing breath.  Think positive. :)
  • willbrich said on Feb 27, 2007....
    queen,
    I just posted a joke to cheer you up.
  • yani said on Feb 27, 2007....

    Queen:  hindi pa sya sinagot right, there's still hope there :)

                   I will cross my fingers for you. Keep me posted.

  • queenparanoia said on Feb 28, 2007....
    yup there wold still be hope but WILL he like me back???? oh crap this question is making me dizzy...
  • yani said on Feb 28, 2007....
    first thing first: does he know you exist? make sure
     
    next: talk to him. give him a chance to enjoy your great sense of humor, your dry wit, your tiltillating laughter, your company.
     
    last: scheme. make plans. scheme. it's all about plan
  • queenparanoia said on Feb 28, 2007....
    thanks for the advice yani! yup i'm thinking of stalking him! i mean knowing about him more!!! hmmmm.... i'll just wait for my chance!

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