life is so confusing.

so much has happened since i posted last....i just haven't felt the need to post anything for months now.....

i don't feel so crazy anymore...a lot happened with that too.

all around christmas time it was.

so i wasn't feeling crazy anymore, wasn't expecting so much from the guy i was with, the father of my kids.....

i met someone else. he's wonderful.

it's such a long story, i don't know how to explain it.

basically, my ex and i have been broken up since last summer, summer 06 that would be. but we've still been sleeping together, and i love him.....and he loves me....

but, we aren't compatible. and he's seeing other women...how many? i'm not really sure...but at least one other that is really special to him.

i found a guy......he's everything that my ex isn't.....but he tends to get a bit jealous...nothing to be concerned about....i think most guys would be jealous of someone they want to be with sleeping with someone else.....

my ex is going back to colorado at the beginning of this coming summer, that's when i'll say goodbye....i'm not sure how else to do it.....

i don't want things to end with this new guy...he's wonderful....but i don't know if he can keep holding on through then.

i don't want to lose him....but i have to end the other the right way so as not to cause problems in the future, i still care about him and love him.