02.22.2007

I am using at least one of my 5 posts per day to put inside this blog old things.
I will put the date and the description.. perhaps one day soulcast will have the option to change the date & time of your posts ;)
But also like that, I am enjoying this new place.
coz it's fresh air -- I do love to get information about so many different things, and I cannot hide the fact that talking freely about sex is really what I need in this period of my life.
Because I need advice/ suggestions

I entered the world of sex when I was 22. I lost my virginity to a wonderful man .. It's a long story.. I took a plane, flew to L.A. when he was living, spend 3 days with him and then went back. Those three days.. wow. It was not just the sex. I really admire him. He soooo handsome, charming, intelligent, brilliant..

But I betrayed him.

It's been a romantic story: tons of email, talking with heart on sleeves, lot of tears.. But distance killed me!!

Sometimes ago he restablish contact -- and said he's still in love with me.
I was sooo overwhelmed by my feelings that I really thought of breaking up with B. and fly to V. and stay there for ever and ever.. Coz he's sorta man of my dream..
But then he vanished again..

But I stayed.. And I am still here.. And tonight, when B. will be back home, I will look at him and really feel sooo a blooming love for him.. Because I am gunning down the romance I had with V. and look at the reality, and this relation I am in right now.