02.21.2007

I spent yesterday evening on the couch.
B. came home really tired and fell asleep immediately. I watched him sleeping for a very long time, passing my hand between his hair or on his cheek now and there.
And the amount of tendress I felt overwhelmed me completely.

We went to bed and I kept on moving and I got awake lot of times.
At 6.14 I saw my watch and I knew the alarm was going to ring in 15 minutes.
I searched for B.'s hand and kept him. He held mine while sleeping..

I caressed his back gently for a while, and after the alarm rang we staied some minutes in bed, just caressing... And he took my hand on his erection, while he touched my breast with his other hand.. And we lied there like that for another while..
Then I jumped out of bed even if that was the last thing I wanted...

I prepared breakfast and as I was waiting for my coffee, he reached me and hold me from behind -- that's a thing that I really love, coz it just feels sooooo good to be in those arms..

So we said goodbye... he took his car, I reached my train station and waited for the train to arrive. And from my heart came a big joy. It was not only the tendress, the will to feel good and loved... He said me "I love u" on Feb. 13 for the first time..

I wrote him an sms telling that my feelings from him were bigger than just liking or caring. And that came out directly from my heart..." I fell in love with you"

He replied some seconds later..  "oh my god... I'm so happy.. I'm flying..."

ANd I felt even more affection .. My eyes were filled with tears of emotion and happiness..

I still don't know if he is the man I want to stay with for a lifetime..I just know that I could stay there and just hold his hand or watch him sleeping and feeling oh soooo happy ...


It came out directly from my heart..
and I had to share it with him...