I've been feeling a bit down, a bit crazy, the last few days. I've noticed there are quite a few of you in a similar boat.
I get a little angry and depressive. It's hard to deal with the kids at times. I feel stuck in the house, trapped in a too small space with too much mess and noise and chaos. It's been so cold that even going shopping is a chore. The bitter cold makes my bones ache. Boy, I feel old sometimes...
The night before last, I got very little sleep. JH was coughing most of the night (he was my preemie with the lung troubles so I don't sleep well when he coughs) and K woke screaming from teeth coming thru. I'm exhausted and everyone is up at 6.30-7am. I'm not a morning person at the best of times... *rolls eyes*
Needless to say, lack of sleep and feeling cramped inside are NOT helping yesterday. I'm yelling at the kids. I can't get motivated to do anything like even loading/unloading the dishwasher. I just wanna sit huddled under a blanket and either sleep, read, or goof-off online.
DH comes home from work a bit early. He starts preparing dinner after clearing out the dishwasher. He smiles at me and gives me a hug when I tell him that I've been lazy all day. I tell him that I'm having trouble coping again. That Spring is too long in coming.
He tells me that he's planning on booking me into a hotel for a night so that I can relax in peace for a night. He tells me not to worry about anything but to just relax. He makes a lovely dinner, we bath and put the kids to bed and relax on the couch.
At bedtime, he hands me a pair of spongy earplugs to put in to sleep with. I say, "but what about the kids? JH is gonna cough all night and K will probably still be teething in the night."
He says, "don't worry about it. I've got it all under control. I'll wake you up before I go to work to make sure that you take out the earplugs."
He says, "don't worry about it. I've got it all under control. I'll wake you up before I go to work to make sure that you take out the earplugs."
I had a wonderful night's sleep and I feel so much better today. Even though it is still freezing cold and I can't/don't want to go out, the sun is shining and the sky is blue. I've been singing at the computer today and laughing at K singing along and L dancing beside me. DH is still going to book me that hotel for Friday night.
I am blessed to be in this relationship. I wish I knew how to tell him how much I love and appreciate him but words aren't enough to describe it. They are too inadequite, too simple, too used.
I am blessed.
