I feel kind of melancholy today. It's a common emotion for me if you read my blog with any regularity. Sometimes I wake up in this state. Sometimes it begins after interaction with my husband.
I'm trying to put mind over matter.
My freedom from this life I've mistakenly chosen with my husband is worth waiting for. I've made the decision to leave. You that read me have seen me slowly come to this realization.
I am worth waiting for me.
It will take time. I have more internal decisions to wrestle with. I have to set myself up financially. I have to decide the how. I think I may be a little closer to that.
I've been checking out online businesses like a maniac with the Better Business Bureau. I have found one that I like. It's been in business for over 10 years and has had no complaints filed against it within the last three years. It is supposed to have low start-up costs. I've talked to a rep. Samples and an information packet or on their way.
Why an online business? The answer is simple to me. I feel tethered here. I want freedom and flexibility. I've lived in the same general area all my life. If I decide to wander somewhere else, I will take my job with me and go. I really will live the rest of my life. I won't be waiting for tomorrow.
I am smart. I can do this.
Sure, there are scams out there. There are real opportunities too. There's no reason I can't be a success wherever in the world I choose to be.
Then the melancholy days will be fewer and farther between.
CW



