Last night was confusing and scary and depressing. I was watching Saw III and I got light headed and dizzy. I have been getting that feeling all week so I wasn't worried about it. Maybe I should have been a bit more concerned but at the time, I just didn't think much of it...that is I didn't think anything of it until a turned my head away from the television and I got an overwhelming feeling that I knew what was going to happen. It was the same feeling I got when it happened the first time.
I had taken a shower and even before I got out, I had felt so dizzy. I was leaning against the wall and the next thing I remember is laying naked on the floor with Mom, Cheryl, and Jose standing in the doorway looking scared. I had been shaking on the floor and they took me to the hospital. I guess my vagel nerve got over stimulated or something like that. But it happened again and now I'm not sure the doc had a clue what he was saying. I don't get sick from gory movies.
I remember I was about to tell Cheryl that I was dizzy but I didn't get the chance to tell her because I had passed out. I remember that people were laughing at me so I yelled "IT'S NOT FUNNY!" at my sister. They thought I had a bug on me and no one but Cheryl knew what was happening. She was about to push me on the floor so that I didn't choke on my tongue. I had a charlie horse but of course, that is likely irrelivant. I started feeling better but mom took me to the hospital anyway.
They took some blood and did some tests. All they found was a mild UTI (although I highly doubt that because I have no symptoms of that whatsoever.) Tomorrow at 11:00 am I have an appointment with a neurologist to check on my brain waves. My dad should be calling today because my mom called him last night. We never have anything to talk about but I guess we have to talk about my health now. Getting home, I felt fine. Justin, my brother, was awake and he was drunk (or he was acting like it) and he kept hugging me and telling me he loved me. He said he got alcohal from a friend but I talked to the friend and he denied it and I believe him. But back to the point....
I stayed home from school today and, although I hate to miss more school, I will have to stay home tomorrow as well because of the appointment. While at home, I slept and watched T.V. most of the day. I've been getting dizzy but not to the point of a black out. When I called my mom to see if I could get on her computer, I explained to her how I was feeling and how i realized that the movie was not the thing to make me ill. She asked me to write out what I told her so that she could explain things better to the doc. It makes sense to me but I really don't feel like doing it. Oh well. It isn't as though I have much else to do today.
This isn't my best post. It's not upbeat and it's a little scattered but I just needed to get it out. If you know what might be wrong with me, I'd like to know what you think. I am not looking for you to "cure" me but I'd like som possible answers.
Just an update on the guy...So far so good. I heard on Bewitched earlier that a crush is an intense and superficial attraction that can sometimes be mistaken for something more. Ignore the fact that she married the man but focus on the fact that her definition was perfect and that's just what was happening to me. I'm feeling better now...emotionally I mean. Physically, I'm okay but I could be better.
