there comes A time when you need a little strength to get through your day, And you can't seem to find it. Like what I'm going through right now my father called me for the first time in about  7 years. I walked away from him because I didn't want him to hurt me anymore.You here all about parents leaving there children but you never hear to much of children leaving the parents. And you know that after all these years of not talking to him it dosen't even seem real to me cause I just started to think he was dead I guess that was my way of dealing with it. Like don't get me wrong I love my Father with all my heart but I never felt that kind of love from him, Now he telling me things that I wanted to hear my whole life and I don't want to get hurt yes he might want me in his life now but who's to say how long he will. He'spushed me away for so long that maybe things will never be how I hoped for them to be and he did remarry but I can't stand her for a minute she turned him in to someone that is nothing like what I knew he was. I know you got to sometimes let the past rest where you left it but when it has so much to do with the present it's hard to not let it rest.It's funny that things he did or said to me even today  it affects my relationship with my hubby now when he had nothing to do with any of it at all. I know I will get through it somehow but I just have to find the strength to get through it.... So if anyone has any advice it would help me so much, Thank you for taking the time to read ths