its exactly 12:22 am, january 12 and i'm still awake. why? cuz its my birthday!!!
{{me doing a dance}}
Go, go, go, go
Go, go, go shawty
It's my birthday
We gon' party like it's my birthday
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's my birthday
And you know we don't give a fuck
It's not your birthday!
Go, go, go shawty
It's my birthday
We gon' party like it's my birthday
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's my birthday
And you know we don't give a fuck
It's not your birthday!
ohmygod i'm 21!!!!!
i'm gonna have a dinner party here in the house with all of my friends. kinda worried cuz the food might not be enough but dont worry i'll get them drunk!!!! hehehehehe
exactly a year ago i chatted with my cousin who lives in USA right now. i told him that i was scared of being 20. i was anxious and sad at the same time. i feel something that i cant explain. i'm scared for no reason. and you know what he said?
time to grow up queen!!!
yeah time to grow up and face the real world. youre not a teenager anymore. and looking back at being 20 it changed me a lot. the biggest impact of my life is when i experinced the death of my friend. i have never known anyone so close to me died before. so it was a real shock to me. i was in suicidal mode on that time. at that moment i really felt God on my life. he helped me picked up the pieces and moved on. and i know my friend is happy right now because i know he's in heaven watching over me. my angel.
and last summer me and my mother finnally patched up the hidden hurts between us. i never realized how much she loved me when she said she was proud of me.
and my close friend had a miscarriage. it was really sad cuz she really wanted that baby.
oh yeah i'm finnally "over" him. i'm not inlove anymore with him anymore. the guy who broke my heart.
my bestfriend got married. that was really sad for me cuz it was an surprised wedding and i was not invited!!! and yeah last night she told me she was pregnant!!! but were still friends and i still love her!!! she is still my bestfriend.
wow. what a year it was. i really did grow up. i have taken more responsibility and challenges. i admitted my mistakes and learned to move on. i know what's important in life now. and finnally i know God has a bigger dream for me. i can't believe i'm saying this...
but i'm becoming a "woman".
so yeah i'm excited that's its my birthday. eventhough i have the same birthday with my enemy! the bitch is still invited cuz i'm so fucking nice! and i have a party and she doesn't!!!
well i'm thankful for another year of me. another year of learning and growing. this time being serious abut losing weight. today i was really angry and i wanted to eat something but i realized i wanted to eat cuz i was angry so i didnt eat!!! and i'm thankful for my family and friends who loved and supported me.
and i'm thankful that i found soulcast!!! cuz this is the place where i could really express myself!!! and thank you guys fo being my friend.
{{still dancing}}
Go, go, go, go
Go, go, go shawty
It's my birthday
We gon' party like it's my birthday
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's my birthday
And you know we don't give a fuck
It's not your birthday!
Go, go, go shawty
It's my birthday
We gon' party like it's my birthday
We gon' sip Bacardi like it's my birthday
And you know we don't give a fuck
It's not your birthday!
