Hello to all my fellow Soulcast bloggers :)
If you happened to read my last post about the situation with the guy that I had to tell I wasn't interested in (after leading him on a bit)...I contacted him a few days ago and he hasn't e-mailed or called since.
Now what should I think of that? Is he nursing his wounded heart (which I highly doubt, unless he's like a leech that is stuck to you once it gets a good grip)...or is he angry? Scheming against me? Usually I would be happy if a guy like him never contacted me gain, but in this case, I'm going to be seeing him the day after tomorrow. It's going to be quite awkward, probably...ah well, I'm not responsible for his feelings. If he chooses to sulk, that's entirely his choice. If there's no chemistry, it won't work. I'm just saving myself (and him, whether or not he chooses to believe that at the moment) a ton of trouble.
You know, after a while, a girl starts feeling lonely. It would be really nice to have someone. But don't get me wrong, that doesn't mean I'll bury myself into a relationship with a guy I don't like, just because he shows interest (too much interest...creepy kinda). I haven't had anyone since June :( alas, the last relationship ended badly. But I resolved to stay an optimist. (if anyone watches Sex and the City, its kind of like the situation Charlottle finds herself in. She can't find love after her last relationship and she's depressed about it) Anyway, I apologize to anyone who just read this whole thing and is thinking that I'm really absorbed in myself- I'm not. I'm just trying to sort out my thoughts, its a stream-of-conciousness sort of thing.
Enough about me. How about all of you? I hope everything is going wonderfully, my best to all of you! :)
~Anna
