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its just 4 days but i already  broke my new years resolution. here i am eating a bag of chocolate chip cookies.

fuck...

why do i eat?

because i'm fucking depressed right now. i'm going to iloilo this sunday cuz school starts on monday. fuck.

why am i doing this to myself? i dont know. self control? yeah i really need that. addiction? yup i'm a fucking food addict. everytime i see or smell food i want to eat. not because i'm hungry.

and i eat because i feel sad and in turn makes me more sad. no wonder i dont have a fucking boyfriend. i cant even love myself. how can i love another person.

oh crap i'm gonna vent it all here in soulcast.

how bout you guys? did you broke your new years resolution yet?



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  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 04, 2007....
    (((((HUGS)))))

    I made a resolution not to make a New Years resolution! LOL

    Don´t be too hard on yourself.

    My bestfriend sooooo beautiful did not even have a boyfriend until we started working abroad...the same with me and we ate like truck drivers you know batya batya...LOL tama ba...boba na ako sa Pilipino...

    Almost all of my batchmate in college did not have boyfriends and are now leading a nice life with love ones or hubbies...

    My hubby is my first and only...we will be married in January 29 for 13 years...Okay...

    I want to give you my URL address, but I am a bit wary of eyes watching =   (

    I just want you to know, you are not alone!  Everything you write I could identify!  Sorry Sweet I´ll write longer next time my daughters are hating SoulCast everyday LOL....

    ate papel~
  • secretlife said on Jan 04, 2007....

    food is the worst addiction.

    we have to eat, to live, right?

    so you messed up.

    you just have to try harder and do better.

    next time you're feeling blue, drink a glass of water, and take a short walk.

    sounds like terrible advice, i know, but sometimes if you replace the urge with something else, the urge will go away....

    you can do this....

  • GumpyJumptooth said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Queen,

    Don't sweat it.  You know what the first rule of Italian auto racing is?

    The first rule of Italian auto racing is a thing that will help you many, many times in your life.

    Because the first rule of Italian auto racing is, "WHAT'S BEHIND YOU IS NOT IMPORTANT."

    Do me a favor.  Go to the grocery.  Go the Fruits and Vegetables section.  I hope you like strawberries.  I do.  I also like bananas, but that's just me.  Get every damn thing you like in that section.

    'Cause THAT STUFF, you can eat as much as you want of it, and it won't be making you feel bad--and it's actually really, really good for you!  You get ahold of a great peach and you'll kick those cookies to the curb.

    If you want, get some salad, too.  Man, there's low-cal this and that, but just some vinegrette or a light ranch on some sunflower seeds, low-fat cheese, and little tomatoes?

    I know it's very, very hard for you.  I know the temptation to fall "off the wagon" is great.  We all do it from time to time.

    But I also know that you can imagine yourself to have a will of iron.  Every time you get the temptation, feed it with an apple, or get out the George Foreman, grill up a chicken breast and make a salad.  Or some pasta.

    The first step is removing all the stuff you're tempted by from your immediate environment.  If all you got is good stuff, all you can eat is good stuff.

    BTW, one of the best things you can eat--if you like it and I happen to love it--is RAISIN BRAN with a tiny bit of honey in it.  (And milk, of course.  Let's not go crazy.)

    JUICE.  If you have a juicer thingy--great!  If you don't, try to get REAL juice and not the kind with a TON of extra sodium and stuff.

    SALT.  The more salt in your diet, the more water you will retain.  If you remove as much salt as possible, you won't retain any water, which will make you more toned.  Mrs. Dash makes about five different styles of stuff that has little sodium, and it's much better for you than salt.

    The key is finding things you like that are better for you than currently.  Then that 30 minutes of exercise a day.  I know it won't be easy at first.  It'll be hard.  It'll suck.  But...

    "Inch by inch is a cinch.  Yard by yard is hard."

    A little a day.  I believe in you.  No matter how many times you slip, I know you'll get up and keep going.
  • GumpyJumptooth said on Jan 04, 2007....
    One more way to think about it, Queen, is this:

    If someone came to you--right now--and said, "If you exercise every day for 30 minutes and stay on your diet for a month, I'll give you a million dollars" and you knew they were for real--would you do it?

    'Cause I mean, the reward is sooooo great, certainly the sacrifice would have to be worth it, right?

    It's the same here.  You can't tell right now, but at the end of a month you could.  BECAUSE YOU WILL FEEL LIKE A MILLION BUCKS.  You can't imagine the exponental self-confidence you'll get. 

    And the will to do more and keep going because the longer you do it, the EASIER it is. 

    Hang in there.  Don't beat yourself up.  Don't be sad.  We all think you're the greatest.  I know it's easy to say "don't be sad."  Easier said than done.

    Every time you feel the temptation, do two things:
    1.  Grab some good stuff--a slice of cheese, some fruit, celery with some peanut butter in it.
    2.  Know that everybody here knows you are stronger than your temptation.

    And remember, eating good stuff and being on a diet doesn't mean you can't have tacos.  Or a million other things.  You just have to plan it into your diet.

    Popcorn with Mrs. Dash?  If you cook the popcorn on the stove yourself, and don't use a ton of oil?  REALLY good and not bad for you!  I eat TONS of it as a snack!

    And you should LOVE yourself.  You're smart.  You can write.  You're brave--you admit your feelings.  You have identified how you want to improve yourself--CONGRATULATIONS!!  You are one rung ahead over 90% of the people on earth!

    You have a personal cheering section right here on SoulCast...

    "QUEEN-IE!, QUEEN-IE! QUEEN-IE!"
  • missb said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Dear Queen,

    Don't beat yourself up. So you failed today, but you can always do better tomorrow. Addiction is hard to overcome, everyone knows that. If it's easy there will be no alcoholics or junkies.

    It's all about self-control. Heck, easier said than done, i know that first hand. But i'm sure you'll overcome it dear.

    I think i've already broken my ny's resolution too. I made a vow to actually start doing what i say i would and stop procrastinating! [sigh]

    Anyway, cheer up, ok. You're not alone. [hugz]

    Cheers :)
  • Lioness said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Queen, frankly, I don't have a resolution! So there's nothing to break. Hehehe...

    Well, I don't usually comment about diets or anything, coz I can't even lose the ugly flabs in my tummy, and wear a fitting midriff blouse. And yes, when depressed, I binge. On.. Guess what?? CHOCOLATES!!!! But I am living by this saying, to quote whoever wrote this "eat to live, not live to eat".

    My dear, we have our own flaws, things we do not like about ourselves. There are things that we cannot change. So let's live with it. Accept ourselves for what we are, even our imperfection. Those things we can change, change! Gradually, that is. Don't be too harsh on yourself, it's the only one you've got.


  • dazed_and_confused said on Jan 04, 2007....
    I broke a lot of New Year's resolution and its just the fifth day of the year. I told myself that I would tone my tummy and exercise every morning. Guess what. I didn't. I'm really lazy. Oh yeah I also said that I won't be late. Guess what, I was late for 10 minutes the other day because of traffic. heheheh.

    Anyways, don't sweat it out. Chips ahoy ba yan? Pahingi naman? Just Kidding. There's always tomorrow. Okay lang yan. Everything takes time. Parang yosi yan. Hindi mo pwedeng isstop kaagad, kundi magkakaroon ka ng withdrawal syndromes. Tulad ng yosi, unti unting pag ka cut back lang yan. :D Oks lang yan. Tao ka lang. E di bukas ulit. Unti unti lang ang pagbabawas. You are allowed to have a choco chip cookies naman every now and then.

    Basta remember, a little bit goes a long way! Kaya mo yan. Ipag checheer kita. [dazed does her cheer dance] heheheh

    Cheers
  • mom said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Pick yourself up, dust off and start over. I don't know of anyone that has ever broke a habit over night.  It is trial and error.  Keep trying and you will succeed.
  • queenparanoia said on Jan 04, 2007....
    wow...
     
    i was overwhelemed with responses from you guys. as in wow!!! thank you for youre support!!!
     
    paper: thank you for always. youre a source of inspiration for me. and thank you.
     
    secretlife: thank you. i'll follow your advice about drinkking water if i have the urge.
     
    gumpyjumptooth: i love apples!!! and youre right i should eat more fruits and vegetables. and well youre right i wanna feel like a million bucks if i lose all the weight. this is time i wanna do it for me.
     
    missb: thank you for your adivce. and well its not just about self control for me. you see i use food sometimes as my comfort. with all the trauma i experinced this year. food was my friend. for a while. but right now through friends and family and soulcast i am overcoming that tragedy in my life. so thank you for your advice.
     
    lioness: thanks for the advice. i love myslef. i just dont like my fats. because i'm not a fat ugly person! i'm sexy!!! hehehehe.
     
    dazed: sorry its not chips ahoy! rebisco po! local lang masarap kasi! pero hindi ko naubos binigay ko sa kapatid ko. grabe nga ang traffic sa manila. hehehe kahapon nakasakay ako sa mrt!!! oh yeah i haven't smoke a cigarrette for a week! yehey!!!!
     
    mom: thanks for your comment.
  • Lioness said on Jan 05, 2007....
    Attagirl! =)
  • polarheart said on Jan 05, 2007....
    Hi Queen!
     
    Just wanted to give my 2 cents worth - I found the best way to beet the food thing is to just NOT buy the things that are bad for me.  And get rid of i.e. throw in the bin, the things that are bad for you.
     
    I use to be hooked on peanut butter - I ate it by the spoonful.  And for anyone who reads labels, you just need to look and see how many calories peanut butter contains.  So, I made a quality decision NOT to buy peanut butter anymore.
     
    For months even perhaps even years there was no peanut butter in the house, until one day I realised that the addiction was broken when I didn't think about it anymore.  So, now I can buy peanut butter and its in the cupboard and it doesn't bother me.  On occassion I have it on toast.
     
    I agree with Gumpy about the fruit.  What i do is buy loads of fruit and put it on display in a large bowl.  When something looks well presented you will be more attracted to it.  Put it somewhere you can see it and then it will attract your eye when you get the "empty" feeling.
     
    All the very best to you - Polarheart
     
     
  • MsBradford07 said on Jan 05, 2007....
    I'm sorry to hear that you broke your resolution, but don't give up on yourself. If you want to lose weight, then lose it. Don't do it 'cause you want a man or for this or that, but 'cause that is what you want. I'm a plus-size female and I get men with the size that I am, but I want to lose weight 'cause I know in the future I want to live longer and be healthy. Queen, you gotta to learn love who you are and be happy with. And if you are not happy, find happiness.
  • paidinblood said on Jan 05, 2007....
    Reyna, kalma lang!

    Alam ko na alam mo na kayang-kaya mo 'yan.  Kung kailangan mong kumain eh di kumain ka ng mansanas. :D  Hanapin mo yung paborito mong pagkain na hindi nakakataba at dun ka bumanat pag kailangan mo na talagang kumain.

    Kaya mo yan!  Andito pa rin ako, sumusuporta.

    :D
  • queenparanoia said on Jan 05, 2007....

    polarheart: thanks dear addiction is very hard to overcome. but i'm trying dear.

    msbradford: yeah youre right i'm doing this for myself and not for men! its just frustrating cuz i dont have any boyfreind!!!! joke.

    paidinblood: salamat sa suporta. mahirap talaga pag mataba! walang nagkakagusto sa akin. mabait naman ako! (charing!!!) ewan ko ba kung bakit. siguro naintmidate sila sa akin dahil medyo madaldal, aggresive, at malakas ang appel ko!!! hehehhe kapal muks talaga ako!

  • Ormocanon said on Jan 05, 2007....
    qp, just remember this, depression is a trigger mechanism, so as much as possible, avoid or minimize your bouts with depression. Hwag mong problemahin kung wala kang boyfriend, buy a vibrator. You'll soon find out batteries lang ang problema mo as compared kung may boyfriend ka. kidding. :) oy alam mo, tingnan mo si Osang, maski mataba na, malakas pa rin ang sex appeal. So, may lesson dyan eh...focus on your strengths, tingnan mo, made-develop mo self confidence mo, magiging kasing-seksi ka ni Osang,
    Seksi na, bigatin pa.
  • worldbeater said on Jan 05, 2007....
    Hey Queen, Misery loves company. So here I am, doing something that is harmful to my body and makes me look real bad:( I am allergic to dairy products and suffer from hyperacidity. But I love tea and I love to have it with milk. But, when I have tea with milk, it makes my stomach bloat and causes swelling all over my body. Result? I not only look fat, I look pregnent!! Now, you don't have THAT problem, do you? So what do I do? I resolve that from 1st of Jan, I will stop having tea, with or without milk. And what do I do? Like you, I drink lots of tea on the last day of the year.. and keep drinking next day, and next day, and till today. So, I have to wear loose tops, Can't wear T-shirts and in general, feel miserable about my body. So. who is to blame for my woes? What should I do to lose that bloated stomach and swollen body? Yeah, you guessed right. Both you and I are our own enemies. Any new plan to defeat this "enemy"? Please share with me:)
  • worldbeater said on Jan 05, 2007....

    btw, read this interactive feature on CNN about weight loss and good diet. Interesting.

    http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2006/healthy.bodies/

  • queenparanoia said on Jan 05, 2007....
    ormocanon: naghahanap nga ako dito sa manila ng vibrator. wala kasi sa iloilo! hehehehe LOL.
     
    worldbeater: yeah we are our own enemy. addiction makes this happen to me. i hope we could overcome it. hey thanks for sharing the feature on CNN!!!
  • MsBradford07 said on Jan 06, 2007....
    I can understand..queen.
  • queenparanoia said on Jan 06, 2007....
    thank you msbradford!!!!!!!
  • tao said on Jan 07, 2007....
    saging, bosing. oy mareng reyna seryosong mungkahi yun a, dehins berde. kesa mansanas. kahit sandamukal kainin mo maghapon, oks lang yun. me nakita ka na bang matsing na tabatsingtsing? tapos kung talagang buryung na buryong ka na kasi wa ka bf, e di alam mo na paano gamit ng saging o di ba. oy jok lang un ha. jas to chir u ap, dir.
     :-p

  • queenparanoia said on Jan 07, 2007....
    tao tenk yo talaga. pinatawa mo ako!!!
  • yani said on Jan 08, 2007....

    Saging?!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!! ha ha ha

    Don't worry about the broken New Year's Resolution, you'll always have another year to start all over again, next year :)

    Don't worry about not having a BF, I'm sure you'll find ways to enjoy yourself at mabuti nga yun, free as a bird ka.

    No seriously, start all over again, it's very hard to break an old habit.

    Goodluck!

     

     

  • worldbeater said on Jan 08, 2007....
    Hey, i got an idea yesterday, about how to fulfil our new years resolutions! it it this: never think like "i will not do this", but think as "i will do this". So, don't think "i will not eat chocolate/ burger/etc". but Think " i will eat vegetables, salads/ soups/ etc." That is a "positive" approach and i think this way of thinking has more chances of succeeding than the "negative" thinking. what d'ya say?
  • queenparanoia said on Jan 11, 2007....
    thanks for the advice worldbeater and i think i'll follow that approach.
  • shazaaam said on Jul 11, 2007....
    This was me a few weeks ago before I found FBCx. It sounds technical and full of chemicals and other garbage, but it’s not. It’s pronounced F-bex and it’s an all-natural dietary fiber that is able to bind dietary fat. You take it with your 3 regular meals having 20 grams of fat or more. We got to sample it in the office and everyone loves it. I thought I would share with you so you can be healthy, loose weight and still get to be a little bad with what you eat. A few people here have lost over 30 pounds a piece and are fitting into their “skinny jeans” again. I am still amazed and want to finally be able to spread good news about dieting. If you are as excited as I was about this you’ll want to check out www.fbcx.com to find out more information and even ask the doctors who created it a question or two.

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