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I have learned the hard way that sometimes you just have to take a side.  You have to stand up for what you believe in and who you believe in.  It costs you...I know.  I have been this way throughout my entire life.  I always sided with the person I believed in even though I knew I would be more popular if I just held the line....wavered...Kept my mouth shut...made everyone happy. 
 
It has cost me...politically, with friends, with my job....but never with me.  And what I mean by that is...when I wake up in the morning...and look in the mirror...I am happy with who I see. I am proud of the woman who stands before me. 
 
I came to soulcast and was inamoured (sp?...go ahead gumpy ...jump on that one) by the love and acceptance I found here.  I blogged for awhile and then I saw hatred... (HBC)..it didn't affect me so much as I was a newbie.  But I didn't understand it.
 
I stayed awhile longer and saw a dear friend belittled.... he left and I was so upset by the turn of events... Secret came to me, calmed me and helped me forgive and accept that everyone comes here just doing the best they can do.  I forgave and moved on. 
 
Then I witnessed another sweet child annilated...she left....and slowly learned to forgive...so I followed her lead and forgave again.  ( I think I may have hurt her along the way ...forgive me dear child.)
 
I am a forgiving soul... I am a kind soul...so evilness, meaness, hatred is so foreign to me...when it shows up I do not understand.
 
Tonight I find myself looking at evil...vindicivness (sp)..again take me out....I do not understand....
 
Someone...I guess it is out there now...secret tried to bring peace...and she was betrayed twice.  Gumpy...take me down if you must...quote me til you can quote me no longer...I think what you did is terrible....dispicable...(sp. ...yes probably another misspelling...have a fucking holiday with that one.)  and Ed....I am truly disappointed with you...I am not going to sugarcoat this just because you have the most popular blog here....I cannot believe what you did. LOOK IN THE MIRROR TOMORROW.....PROUD?????
 
Ed... you will stand by Zayda as a brother...I admire you for that....so admire me for standing by my sister...Secret...
 
She has done nothing but support people here... she has opened her heart. shared her life, given what she does not have to give...loved unconditionally....helped people through pain, admitted that she is not perfect,  she opened HER HEART AND YOU TOOK IT AND THREW IT AGAINST A WALL....
 
Sometimes peope have to take a stand... and I understand with this post, I may never be read again.  I understand with this post people will steer clear of me... but I also understand with this post... there is a woman out there... her name is secretlife... and she knows I love her beyond belief....and she understands what loyalty truly is.
 
So babygirl...when do you want to do lunch????
 
 
 
 


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  • secretlife said on Jan 03, 2007....

    i love you. 

    thank you.

  • satyr said on Jan 03, 2007....
    Jenna, I admire you.  You helped keep me here with your kindness.  I consider it an honor to call you "friend". 
     
    I had hoped that ed would delete his post.
  • silverwhisper said on Jan 03, 2007....
    jenna: for whatever it's worth, i respect that you do what you feel to be the right thing.

    ed
  • Jenna said on Jan 03, 2007....
    Secret..I am holding you right now...I know you are in pain....
     
    Satyr....thanks for your kind words....I hope you know, you will always have a true friend with me.
     
    Ed...It's worth a lot that you respect my loyalty...and I respect yours....perhaps in the future our mutual respect for each other's loyalty can build a bridge to peace. Right now... though...you need to know...you hurt her bad...real bad!
  • mom said on Jan 04, 2007....
    You do realize who is behind this right?  Where was he during this?  He was sitting back laughing.  Gumpy!  I have said it before he is pulling these strings to get us to fight.  We are playing right into it.  I really feel that we should let it roll of our backs. Jenna you have always been kind and I love it, SL you have been a friend, Ed, you are a sweetheart, Satyr you are really cool.  Does anyone really fight amongst themselves when dufus is not involved?  If dufus stayed out of it everyone would be ok. Let's get back to where we were before Gumpy started betraying people.  If we need to direct anger it should be toward him. Has he ever apologized for instigating this?  No and he will never do it either he loves to see people mad at each other. We can agree to disagree on things but so far we have done it with respect and commodoraderie.  I don't know if I spelled it right either. He never came to the post and tried to explain why he betrayed anyone.  He is a spineless little freak.  I feel sorry for him and you guys should too. Don't let him influence you.  He is a parasite.
  • copsunited said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Mom...I just wish you would come right out and say what is on
    your mind. Gees..you white wash everything and sugar coat
    it with words like Parasite, spineless freak, dufus etc.
     
    LMAO..love you Mom...
     
    I think your take is very accurate. That drooling little troll is sitting
    there having congical relations with his right had as he reads this
    knowing he has stirred the pot to boiling.
     
    I do have to say that I was shocked and surprised that Ed took such
    an active roll in this.
     
    There was an indescretion perhaps..but if was not of the magnitude
    that caused Sadam to steal a length of rope and then trip over
    it while carrying it down a stair case. I think he missed the steps
    though...or at least it looked like it on the short film. Huh...
     
    xoxoxoxoxoxox  JD
  • gingersoul said on Jan 04, 2007....

    Jenna, can i come to lunch with you two?

    I am in the mood for soul food...:-)

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

  • purrrkitten said on Jan 04, 2007....

    Jenna, you aren't in the wrong for standing up for your friend. That's what friends do.

    Ed, you may have reacted badly because you felt hurt on behalf of not only yourself but for Z. I have difficulty ignoring people saying things about my friends too.

    Secret, I know you tried to help smooth things and stop a war. Sadly, you trusted someone who used and betrayed your trust for his own ends. I'm betting this is one of those times everyone wishes that they could take back what they said in the past...

    I agree with mom and JD. From everything I've seen following this, it all comes down the GJT's betrayal of secret's trust. I notice that he's had absolutely nothing to say about it all - except to treat secret like she's evil incarnate.

    I'm sorry if I sound like the peacemaker again (JD, it's a VERY hard habit to break after a lifetime of it!) and I do wish for healing for everyone involved.

  • copsunited said on Jan 04, 2007....
    I just now had a conversation with Sadam. Man is he pissed. Even
    the gates of hell have rejected him. Now you KNOW that's bad
    when hell finds your company unwelcomed.
     
    I asked him why he was there..he said he needed a blow job and
    knew that in a not to distant future BumpyBlowTooth would be there
    to accomodate...he is sooooooo good at it...
     
    " In the meantime" sadam gurgled " I think I'll just hang around"
     
    LATERS..JD
  • mobil said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Jenna, you never disappoint me, always  kind words and
    thoughts from you. I know that SL respects you a great deal.
    She has always respected others here. Even if she didn't
    hold them in the highest esteem.
     
    What a silly tiff this is really, and yet is not. To this belongs the
    ugliness of ourselves. Gumpy really has no roll here. As I see
    this, he is an interloper, one who through his own self interest
    as drawn attention to the rest of us.
     
    To our humanity, or lack thereof. I have to laugh at ed's use of the
    word hypocrisy. It is because of our own hypocrisy that we find it
    so easy to see in others and not ourselves.
     
    This that ed did and with malicious intent, will harm only ed.
    He was popular here only because in the past he mostly kept
    himself on the high road.
     
    This that just happened, ed has some emotional attachment
    here. It is not hard to see, this attachment has derailed ed.
    He's fallen from grace, not just the grace of his readers, but
    from his own as well. This will come home to roost.. Ed is a
    young man, this won't be his last mistake in life.
     
    For whatever reasons he chose this path, this method of revenge,
    it will be his undoing here. He knows this too. Ed has written too
    much about the high road to not know when he's not on it.
     
    Truth is a funny thing, we can each look at the same truth and
    come away with a different meaning, a different take.
     
    The truth as I see it here, is that ed talks the high road, when
    it suits him.
     
    Thanks Jenna, no one will run you off here. It wasn't ed and
    Zayda who ran me off the first time. I left because I thought
    I had disappointed and let SL down by making an ass of myself
    in front of her friends.
     
    I see now, how wrong I was about letting her down and about
    her friends too.
  • gingersoul said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Mobil, Secret is lucky to have you as a friend....{{hugs}}
  • missb said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Jenna,

    I'm with you. You're a precious friend to have and i admire you for taking a side. Thanks a lot for the post.

    I love secretlife. She's been nothing but good to me and others. That's why it breaks my heart to see Ed's post and realized something had happened between the two.

    I respect both Ed and SL. I didn't really know what happened as i'd been away. What i know is that it's not nice and messy and i am saddened.

    Hope all this will pass soon.

    Cheers!
  • silverwhisper said on Jan 04, 2007....
    jenna: i apologize for intruding in this space. i understand my presence here is disruptive so i will try to be brief.

    i will not respond to comments directed towards me here. i have no desire to spread the ugliness more widely than i already have, and i fear responding here would do precisely that.

    ed
  • mobil said on Jan 04, 2007....
    I think you underestimate some ed, I doubt you will find
    any ugliness here.
     
    I mean that, this his a human thing. I think you have
    been wrong in what you've done, but  I will not be ugly
    about it.
     
    I don't think anyone commenting here would be ugly.
    There are two camps, yes, it was you who began the
    ugliness ed.
     
    I don't think you will find any ugliness in this camp.
  • satyr said on Jan 04, 2007....
    I would like to second mobil's comments to both Jenna and ed
  • silverwhisper said on Jan 04, 2007....
    i intended no disrespect, gentlemen; my apologies.

    ed
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 04, 2007....
    I love you Godmomsie...I´ll try to comeback...Nick needs laptop =   (
  • Mamie said on Jan 04, 2007....
    jenna, lady... you are a great friend and a noble, kind person. I am proud as always to call you friend and if you all are having lunch then I wouldn't miss it for anything....where are we flying to now??
  • secretlife said on Jan 04, 2007....

    Jenna:

    i just wanted to thank you again for standing with me. 

    i fully realize the amount of courage this took on your part and i am grateful for your loyalty and your friendship.

    lunch - is on me.

    we can't invite satyr, or else we'll be eating naked!

  • satyr said on Jan 04, 2007....
    eating naked is good :-D
  • gingersoul said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Satyr!!!!!! You are always the same (thank goodness)....lol... 
  • satyr said on Jan 04, 2007....
    not really, ginger........the hair keeps getting thinner and thinner :-(
  • justbe said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Jenna, I'm new here but I can see that your courage is great. Being and saying what you feel needs to be said regardless of the outcome. Along with that, although it seems like accepting people is a big value of yours, you realize that for whatever reason it is not something that others hold. I'm told often to be myself, accept others, forgive them if they don't accept me in return, and then move on. It seems like that's what you're doing.
  • satyr said on Jan 04, 2007....
    welcome justbe - I hope you enjoy SoulCast
  • gingersoul said on Jan 04, 2007....

    Welcome justbe....yep.....our Jenna is a real treasure....

    Satyr.......i looooove bold men....*wink*

  • mom said on Jan 04, 2007....
    Welcome justbe, I love reading these comments but I do have obe question.......Who is Naked? ;)
  • EvilTwin said on Jan 05, 2007....
    Jenna... I'm sorry that this has all come to pass, as I mentioned in silver's thread.  As one that respects and cares about both parties involved, I find it hard to deal with all of this.  But I am glad you have posted this. 
     
    [Hugs] for you.  And [Hugs] for secret. 
     
    Just don't know what else to say, really...
     
     
  • philosopher's_stone said on Jan 07, 2007....
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  • RollingC said on Jan 18, 2007....
    Eating naked?!?  I'll bring my camera for the memories !!!
  • RollingC said on Jan 19, 2007....
    Kidding aside.... if everyone is big enough to forgive (if not forget also) what happened and start where we all left off and keep showing love and respect, supporting each other in times of need...then let's do it and we can laugh about this later on....
    And those that can't then peace be with you and go your own way
  • CreativeWoman said on Jan 19, 2007....
    Jenna, dear friend, you could never go too far. :-)

    Hugs,

    CW
  • secretlife said on Jan 19, 2007....
    oh where oh where can she be???
    thinking of you and hoping you're ok missy....
  • Mamie said on Jun 15, 2008....
    loyalty is so good! but it means different things to different people...

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