I have learned the hard way that sometimes you just have to take a side. You have to stand up for what you believe in and who you believe in. It costs you...I know. I have been this way throughout my entire life. I always sided with the person I believed in even though I knew I would be more popular if I just held the line....wavered...Kept my mouth shut...made everyone happy.
It has cost me...politically, with friends, with my job....but never with me. And what I mean by that is...when I wake up in the morning...and look in the mirror...I am happy with who I see. I am proud of the woman who stands before me.
I came to soulcast and was inamoured (sp?...go ahead gumpy ...jump on that one) by the love and acceptance I found here. I blogged for awhile and then I saw hatred... (HBC)..it didn't affect me so much as I was a newbie. But I didn't understand it.
I stayed awhile longer and saw a dear friend belittled.... he left and I was so upset by the turn of events... Secret came to me, calmed me and helped me forgive and accept that everyone comes here just doing the best they can do. I forgave and moved on.
Then I witnessed another sweet child annilated...she left....and slowly learned to forgive...so I followed her lead and forgave again. ( I think I may have hurt her along the way ...forgive me dear child.)
I am a forgiving soul... I am a kind soul...so evilness, meaness, hatred is so foreign to me...when it shows up I do not understand.
Tonight I find myself looking at evil...vindicivness (sp)..again take me out....I do not understand....
Someone...I guess it is out there now...secret tried to bring peace...and she was betrayed twice. Gumpy...take me down if you must...quote me til you can quote me no longer...I think what you did is terrible....dispicable...(sp. ...yes probably another misspelling...have a fucking holiday with that one.) and Ed....I am truly disappointed with you...I am not going to sugarcoat this just because you have the most popular blog here....I cannot believe what you did. LOOK IN THE MIRROR TOMORROW.....PROUD?????
Ed... you will stand by Zayda as a brother...I admire you for that....so admire me for standing by my sister...Secret...
She has done nothing but support people here... she has opened her heart. shared her life, given what she does not have to give...loved unconditionally....helped people through pain, admitted that she is not perfect, she opened HER HEART AND YOU TOOK IT AND THREW IT AGAINST A WALL....
Sometimes peope have to take a stand... and I understand with this post, I may never be read again. I understand with this post people will steer clear of me... but I also understand with this post... there is a woman out there... her name is secretlife... and she knows I love her beyond belief....and she understands what loyalty truly is.
So babygirl...when do you want to do lunch????