Last night I was just thinking how everything that has happened in my life up til now has just been preparing me for what's about to happen.I bought my house in Feb. of '06. I did so just as an investment.You know how there was that huge jump in real estate value.I had no intention of keeping the house.Now I have turned that house into a home for my baby.
Two weeks ago I was out car shopping.I decided I wanted to trade in my SUV for a sports car.I had the rest of life to drive an SUV right? I was single,no kids.Why not? Yet, something that day told me to wait until the new year.Boy, I would really be kicking myself in the butt now, if I had that two seater.
In November I had serioulsy considered leaving my job, to start my own business.I figured this would be the time to do it.I didn't really need insurance.I could take the gamble.It would only affect me after all.Yet I always had this nagging feeling that the timing wasn't right. I even had gone as far as turning in my two weeks.Thankfully they realized that the business just couldn't survive without me(LOL) and let me rescind my resignation.Two weeks later,I found out that the company that had promised me soo much business,went under.Whew, when I think of the heap of trouble I would be in now!
So while I think it's crazy that God is giving me this baby.I am very thankful that He has prepared me for it.I know being a single mom isn't going to be that EASIEST job in the world.But being a mom has to be the BEST job in the world.I go between these feeling of anxiuosness,worry,excitement and nervousness.But below all of those feelings there are always two staples...Hope and Faith.
Hmmm...if it's a girl maybe that's what I should name her...Hope...or maybe Faith.Because without either I would surely be lost.
