• secretlife said on Dec 29, 2006....

  paper:  when you feel so strongly that you must get away, then something isn't right...you're not able to find an important balance in your life.
   
  i hope you can find this.
  it's far far more imporatnt than blogging.
   
  Happy New Year.
   
   

• MissMimi said on Dec 29, 2006....

  If it's what you believe in your heart you need to do, then you will do it. I wonder though, if it's the depression talking.  It sounds like you are anxious about something. 

   Paper, do what you need to do to take care of yourself.

• mobil said on Dec 29, 2006....

  Yes Paper, it's a step in the right direction, you love life too much to not

  get to the bottom of what is bothering you. God Bless

   

  Hope to see you again when you are calm inside and out !

• queenparanoia said on Dec 29, 2006....

  oh no if that will ever happen to soulcast then i dont know what will i do!!!!!!!!
   
  i love it in here!!!!!!
   
  ate papel just stay calm and everything will be alright!!!

• queenparanoia said on Dec 29, 2006....

  oh no if that will ever happen to soulcast then i dont know what will i do!!!!!!!!
   
  i love it in here!!!!!!
   
  ate papel just stay calm and everything will be alright!!!

• paidinblood said on Dec 29, 2006....

  Then we would be greatly denied wouldn't we?
  
  Much Respect,
  piB
  

• ALIENated said on Dec 30, 2006....

  I have been staying away because of the holidays and general lack of interest. It makes me sick that they do not blast the pedafile guy(s). To answer your question, nature hates a void. If SoulCast goes bust, we will all go to some other blog site probably. Or just stop blogging. I am not sure why I keep getting on anyway. I originally started this to collect AdCents money. I have made about $28 in about six months. I think I should retire.

• writerspirit said on Dec 30, 2006....

  Hi paper,
   
  If you're still reading this please know that you are never alone in your depression. I am in the same place and have been for some years now.
  Some days are worse than others and sleeping them away feels like the only solution. I often spend many days in a row without getting dressed and if I don't have to leave my room I don't.
   
  I'm not a therapist but I do know that there are times that you need to indulge your depression in order to face it when you're stronger.
   
  Do what you need to do to survive, no matter what others say.
   
  Writerspirit
  Make yourself your number one priority whenever possible, in what ever way possible and  slowly but surely, your strength will return.

• mom said on Dec 30, 2006....

  I don't know much about you Paper, do you suffer from depresson?  I bet that more than half the people here suffer from some kind of  depression.
  Mabe that is what people with mood disorders do, BLOG!  If you are leaving because you are depressed, thn don't go, talk about it here.  If you are going for other reasons then we will be here when you get back. Well hold the fort down.
  If SC wants to closdlown then we wll have to start our own bogging community. :)

• Jenna said on Dec 30, 2006....

  (((hugs)))

• liquidambar said on Dec 30, 2006....

  If SoulCast went bust . . . I guess I'd go back to pen and paper, because I'd rather write for just myself than not write at all, but where would be the fun in that?
   

• RollingC said on Dec 30, 2006....

  Of course you're strong enough...do what you have to do and then come back and continue blogging.
  {{ Hugs }}
  HAPPY NEW YEAR !
  and have a beer or two....and one for me.
  Rc
  

• polarheart said on Dec 30, 2006....

  Hi Paper
   
  Hey, you know what's great about the responses I've seen to your latest blog is that people really seem to be interested enough to help you through.  You left a comment on my first ever blog and I liked you instantly.  I am nowhere near happiness-personified, but somehow I know that where I'm at right now cant be the sum total of my life forever more.  There is ALWAYS hope, no matter how bad it is right now.  I agree with Mom, get whatever it is off your chest here at SC - you have zero to lose!
   
  Faith is the bird that sings whilst the dawn is still dark.
   
  All the very best - you are special.

• Mamie said on Dec 30, 2006....

  Paper, be at peace with whatever works for you...we will be here when you return. No worries...Mamie

• gingersoul said on Dec 30, 2006....

  Paper.....my sweet paper....i didnt write sooner because i was hoping you could have a change of your heart...i thought "Paper is just having a bad day"...but what worries me is that you are not responding to any of your commenters..this is absolutely not you. This worries me.

  My friend, you have a heart too full...something it can hurt too much ...people hurt you even not knowing it, things happen and you dont know how to react....i dont know how deep your depression is....you have the ruler of your soul but i have been in my black holes too and i can imagine something...

  I wish you will be able to find what you need to get through this dark moment.....to find peace and motivation..... you are strong.  You will be back here and if Sc will be gone in pieces in the meantime we will get in touch the same...{{{{{hugs}}}}} 

• MissMimi said on Dec 30, 2006....

  Just checking in Paper. You've been in my thoughts.

• noxious_one said on Dec 30, 2006....

  SC isn't going to go bust.  Just stop conflating your RL anxieties into hyperbolic ones.  Besides whether SC succeeds or not is beyond your control.  Get a fucking grip.

• SoulCast said on Dec 30, 2006....

  @alienated
  "It makes me sick that they do not blast the pedafile guy(s)."
  
  We've deleted it several times, however there is no way to stop someone from posting. I know it's technical, but there is no effective way to stop someone from posting if they have an elementary understanding of how the internet works.
  
  @everyone
  SC isn't going anywhere anytime soon :)
  

• gingersoul said on Dec 30, 2006....

  Soulcast......a.smack for assuring us!  

  But about the pedophile sicko...isn't up to you guys draw the lines about what is acceptable and what is not in your site?. I assure you that blocking any post who contains that kind of sick material is not going to make you loose any member because of a breach in freedom of speech....

  how come eHarmony can deny the access to their service based on religious preference (it happened to me) and you cant do anything in blocking these posts?

  Thanks and happy New Year to you guys!!!

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Dec 31, 2006....

  Thank you all so much for taking time to comment on this blog...believe me, I thought this will end up uncommented because of the holidays, and it was one of those insomiac laced post of mine, and believe me there are lots of this kind that went uncommented...
  
  I guess, this shows me that virtual life in SoulCast is indeed unpredictable...
  
  Secret   you are right - my search for balance in life is my ultimate goal.  I take comfort in knowing what the ultimate goal is, for I have spent a great years of my life asking myself - what now?
  
  MissMimi   you recognized it, me sweetie - my anxiety rears its ugly head in times when I feel I know what I want in life, and how to get it.  It smells my self-confidence, and utter joy.  It simply enjoys raining in my parade...what to do, what to do...yeah, sleep is my refuge...
  
  Mobil   you get me, in every sense of the word...it should be eerie for we hardly know each other.  Sometimes, I entertain the thought or the wishful thinking to be precise that maybe the spirit of my Dad is talking through you...I´ll tell you more about it when I feel strong enough...I know, you´ll be there
  
  Queen   salamat...minsan nakakatawa ang tadhana, hindi ba?  Dito tayo nagkatagpo...sana magkita tayo...isang araw...
  
  paidinblood   Mabuhay, Kabayan! Salamat sa pagdaan...sana, magkaroon tayo ng pagkakataon magpalitan ng ideya, plano at pangarap sa buhay
  
  ALIEN   Please Don´t retire!!! You are one of the reasons I keep coming back and staying around...I am short and sweet....so I´ll keep this comment S&S...we have the whole year to get to know each other...I am with Adsense too - very curious if I will ever get to $100 and get paid too...I´ll treat you to lunch! Promise!!
  
  Writerspirit  your words are balm to my aching heart.  Only those who have gone through depression, or are still  overcoming this affliction can understand how it could be a living hell for those afflicted.
  
  I have come to accept it.  A good friend gave me words that I needed to view it with sense of humour.  She said, I should treat depression as I do when I have a common cold...if I have to draw the curtains, and sleep the whole day to go through the bouts of the D, then so be it.
  
  I should not feel shame.  Nor anger.  When we have the colds, don´t we take medicine and rest?
  
  Thank you for taking time.  Hope to see more of you, and I would take time to visit, once this phase is overcome.
  
  All of you are giving me a reason or a better alternative than staying in bed.
  
  mom   thanks, so very much for your words.  I guess that the main reason I am addicted to SoulCast - words have a tremendous healing effect for me.
  
  Do you know, I could go back again and again to the words you left in this blog?  I just want to tell you, that my family is grateful to you =     ).
  
  Yes, every words count....we are all linked in life.  I believe in that.  Goodness can never be enough.
  
  Yes, I am with you....blogging to help people with depression!  Wouldn´t that be totally cool!?!
  
  Jenna      I know you are always there for me Godmomsie (((hugs)))
  
  liquidambar yeah, I share your sentiments.  Sharing one´s thoughts is ultimately rewarding for both the writer and reader.
  
  Thanks for dropping by and reading.  Your thoughts, are mine as well.  Looking forward to more sharing, and interactions.
  
  RollingC ~grins~ well, now the big mystery (for me) is unveiled  ;   )....
  we still have :
  ♫ 72 bottles of beer on the wall...................................♫
  
  ♫ 72 bottles of beer on the wall....
  ♫ Take one down and pass it around...........................♫
  71 bottles of beer....♫
  
  Prost! (toast in German amigo)
  
  polarheart       such beautiful words! As I´ve said to mom, I have this blog to turn to, whenever fear, doubt, and insecurity overcomes me. 
  
  I will take comfort in your words.  Thank you for taking time polar!
  
  And whenever a bird chirps , I will think of you =     )
  
  Mamie
  Ginger
  Noxious
  SoulCast
  

• SoulCast said on Dec 31, 2006....

  @gingersoul
  
  You kindly obliged eharmony and didn't try to circumvent their policy. I assure you that anyone with a modicum of technical know-how can not be prevented from posting. I don't know how else to say this so that everyone understands.
  
  A person that has a basic understanding of how the internet works can NOT be prevented from posting.
  

• mom said on Dec 31, 2006....

  I am glad that you are here.  I have thought about you often and had hoped that you were ok.  I really hope that you have worked through whatever it is that was bothering you.  I also hope you will stay.

• PAPERBACKWRITER said on Dec 31, 2006....

  Thank you all so much for taking time to comment on this blog...believe me, I thought this will end up uncommented because of the holidays, and it was one of those insomiac laced post of mine, and believe me there are lots of this kind that went uncommented...
  
  I guess, this shows me that virtual life in SoulCast is indeed unpredictable...
  
  Secret   you are right - my search for balance in life is my ultimate goal.  I take comfort in knowing what the ultimate goal is, for I have spent a great years of my life asking myself - what now?
  
  MissMimi   you recognized it, me sweetie - my anxiety rears its ugly head in times when I feel I know what I want in life, and how to get it.  It smells my self-confidence, and utter joy.  It simply enjoys raining in my parade...what to do, what to do...yeah, sleep is my refuge...
  
  Mobil   you get me, in every sense of the word...it should be eerie for we hardly know each other.  Sometimes, I entertain the thought or the wishful thinking to be precise that maybe the spirit of my Dad is talking through you...I´ll tell you more about it when I feel strong enough...I know, you´ll be there
  
  Queen   salamat...minsan nakakatawa ang tadhana, hindi ba?  Dito tayo nagkatagpo...sana magkita tayo...isang araw...
  
  paidinblood   Mabuhay, Kabayan! Salamat sa pagdaan...sana, magkaroon tayo ng pagkakataon magpalitan ng ideya, plano at pangarap sa buhay
  
  ALIEN   Please Don´t retire!!! You are one of the reasons I keep coming back and staying around...I am short and sweet....so I´ll keep this comment S&S...we have the whole year to get to know each other...I am with Adsense too - very curious if I will ever get to $100 and get paid too...I´ll treat you to lunch! Promise!!
  
  Writerspirit  your words are balm to my aching heart.  Only those who have gone through depression, or are still  overcoming this affliction can understand how it could be a living hell for those afflicted.
  
  I have come to accept it.  A good friend gave me words that I needed to view it with sense of humour.  She said, I should treat depression as I do when I have a common cold...if I have to draw the curtains, and sleep the whole day to go through the bouts of the D, then so be it.
  
  I should not feel shame.  Nor anger.  When we have the colds, don´t we take medicine and rest?
  
  Thank you for taking time.  Hope to see more of you, and I would take time to visit, once this phase is overcome.
  
  All of you are giving me a reason or a better alternative than staying in bed.
  
  mom   thanks, so very much for your words.  I guess that the main reason I am addicted to SoulCast - words have a tremendous healing effect for me.
  
  Do you know, I could go back again and again to the words you left in this blog?  I just want to tell you, that my family is grateful to you =     ).
  
  Yes, every words count....we are all linked in life.  I believe in that.  Goodness can never be enough.
  
  Yes, I am with you....blogging to help people with depression!  Wouldn´t that be totally cool!?!
  
  Jenna      I know you are always there for me Godmomsie (((hugs)))
  
  liquidambar yeah, I share your sentiments.  Sharing one´s thoughts is ultimately rewarding for both the writer and reader.
  
  Thanks for dropping by and reading.  Your thoughts, are mine as well.  Looking forward to more sharing, and interactions.
  
  RollingC ~grins~ well, now the big mystery (for me) is unveiled  ;   )....
  we still have :
  ♫ 72 bottles of beer on the wall...................................♫
  
  ♫ 72 bottles of beer on the wall....
  ♫ Take one down and pass it around...........................♫
  71 bottles of beer....♫
  
  Prost! (toast in German amigo)
  
  polarheart       such beautiful words! As I´ve said to mom, I have this blog to turn to, whenever fear, doubt, and insecurity overcomes me. 
  
  I will take comfort in your words.  Thank you for taking time polar!
  
  And whenever a bird chirps , I will think of you =     )
  
  Mamie      you words of assurance is a great comfort for me...I thank you for caring enough to leave me words to cherish...
  
  This only strengthens my belief that, however simple words are to me, to a friend they could mean unendless joy.
  
  Yes, you have given me unendless Joy Mamie....
  
  Ginger      I apologize for worrying you dearest!  I wish, I could have answered, responded sooner but I was incapable of doing so...
  
  Today is a good day...As I´ve learned from MissMimi, and other friends who suffers/suffered from depression, one has to take life one day at a time.
  
  Moreover, not to view oneself as a loser.  Perhaps one day, the society will view this affliction like a common cold...it exist and it needs to be treated, and more importantly the afflicted should be treated with more respect and sympathy.
  
  We are not lazy, just suffering from within...
  
  My love to you....
  
  Noxious   give me a break pal!  What have i done to you, huh? Well, I could view your visit positively, and say, hey he/she cares...
  
  And so I will.
  
  I wish you the best.  Love and Peace!
  
  SoulCast    thanks for reassuring us...seriously, I have been entertaining this thoughts.  It is nice to know that you are here to stay.
  
  Re: pedophile...I was deliberating with myself if I should comment and justify this person´s existence...I hope we will find a solution to this dilemma.  His mere existence bother me.  I ignore him (please do not click to view him fellow SoulCasters), and pray that Cops action will merit fruits of success...
  
  Again to one and all, yeah you too Noxious...my love and thanks...
  
  HAPPY NEW YEAR & All The Best for 2007 and all the years to come
  
  Yours truly,
  
  Paper~
  

• gingersoul said on Dec 31, 2006....

  Paper.....love to you too, dear......

  Have a beautiful New Year.

  Please, take care of you!

  Psst: can i give u a suggestion? Dont even bother to answer who doesn't appreciate you. Save your energy for who likes you...{hugs}. 

   {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{smack}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

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