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I was in a better mood today.I went into work and everyone was just taking it easy before our three day weekend.We all went out to breakfast.As always I can count on my guys for a good laugh.A couple of them even gave me a Christmas gift.I was really touched at their thoughtfulness.But reminded that I had yet to start my own Christmas shopping.

I feel better,I think I am up for some shopping.First I head into Pier 1,grab that candle holder, my sister has been eyeing.Next stop, Target.I have to find those Food Network cookbooks for my mom.My gosh, it's so packed.It's so loud.There is a baby crying.I am standing in front of a dozen cookbooks for what seems like hours.Which one did she say she wanted?Then I hear a woman's voice reach me above all others.I hear her say,"I told him I want to go to dinner and a movie."I turn around and see it's HER.I quickly duck behind the book shelves.I can still see her...she is walking aimlessly through the main aisle, talking on her cell phone.I am frozen in my hiding place.I can not move.I can not breathe.All I can do is stare...at HER.He left me for HER!! You have got to be kidding me.I couldn't look that Plain Jane if I tried.Stringy, mousey brown hair,no make up,shirt too tight, jeans too small, all covered by a dirty grey sweat jacket.I feel like I want to throw up.Then I feel like I want to break into a hysterical cry.In the end I just start to laugh.I decide I am crazy and want to abandon my shopping trip . I head to the cashier for check out.I look over and there SHE is again, in the next lane.I start to giggle and silently send up a prayer.God help him.



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  • gingersoul said on Dec 24, 2006....

    Yes, somebody help him! LOL.....But in the end who cares?

    You have to help yourself, girl...

    I thought you were writing a scene from MY movie..lol..

    The first time i saw in person the woman who my husband left me for i felt like my stomach was chewing itself...but i stayed there, chin up, stone face and a semi smile on my lips...and i even looked her straight in the eyes...she has been the one to bow the head and look elsewhere......

    I am sorry but maybe in the future you will have more of this freaking encounters and i know she is THAT mouse compared to you and he is has half brain sucked up by the aliens....

    BUt reality is ...he moved on, he found her on his path, you are walking on a different road. So next time dont you dare to run and hide or stop shopping. Instead, stay where you are. Dont change any single steps. And look at her.  She is not the reason of your pain, believe me. Not more. She or another one....its the love that he had for you that is gone...

    Sooner you reach this sad but comforting truth sooner you will be free...

    Btw, Food Network cookbook, eh? Good choice.....and Pier1 is my kindof shop...:-)

    {{hugs}}

  • Jenna said on Dec 28, 2006....
    Dearest Hope,
     
    After reading about your wonderful news....I decided to go back and read all of your posts.  I can relate to your pain so well. 
     
    Listen to sweet Ginger....her words are wise and always filled with love and compassion. 
     
    I can only add on to what she has said. 
     
    I spent two years...wasted is a better word...in pain over lost love.  I thought I would NEVER find happiness again.  I could not understand why God had done this to me...taken away someone I had loved with my heart and soul.  I too had to see "HER".  Uh...what that would do to my stomach.....
     
    Hope...I NEVER thought I would be able to say these words....but I thank God it did not work out.  I have moved on in my life and finally get that God has it under control.  He's got it all figured out... even if we don't.  We have to learn to trust him. 
     
    So my dear... while right now... your heart is heavy....just know each day when you feel the tears come... soon .there  will be days where there are no tears....but it takes time to get there.....Be kind to yourself.
     
    You now have a miracle growing inside you...how  wonderful.  I am truly happy for you.  Please know we are here to hold your hand along the way....
     
    I wish you Peace....Hope and Faith!!!!!
    Love to you!
    Jenna

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I often think of babies found in trashcans. If a few are found, how many go unfound? I often think of transients. Lost and alone drunks, drug addicts and psychological cases. Sometimes they die with no identification on them, and they are buried or creme...
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here...
Target Boxes of Baby Wipes for $0.55!...
Oh god...
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