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Today was difficult day.In fact it's been a difficult week.I am finding that the nights are hardest.I can't sleep.I miss the snoring.This morning I woke up crying.It's his birthday.But I got up and went to work.I was only two hours late.And I looked a mess.I am the only woman in a man's field.All the guys have adapted the protective older brother and dad role with me.I have gotten quite a few offers to have him beaten or killed.I am at odds with myself.I keep telling myself life goes on...someone out there is looking for me too...get it together girl.And I am also telling myself I miss his kisses...I miss the way his arms encircled me.Is it really possible to feel for someone else the way I feel for him?This is...I mean was ...my first real adult relationship and I am lost.Sure I have had boyfriends in the past, but no one that I loved.I feel the ever present pain dulling.God...are you listening to me?Please take this away...


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  • moonriver said on Dec 21, 2006....
    hopeandfaith, what can i say. nothing except a simple poem.

  • gingersoul said on Dec 21, 2006....

    Hope......listen to me...it will go away.....it will....your wounds just need time to heal....give yourself this time...dont rush, dont pretend, dont be impatient....you have to cry all your tears before moving on...

    but you will....believe me....how do i know? because i have been there...and not only once....

    i am sorry for your pain....

    you are in the worst place on Earth right now....but you will get out...{hug}

  • k2wench said on Dec 22, 2006....
    I am sorry that this experience is leaving you feeling so sad and gloom. You'll be with someone who will appreciate and love you and treat you right.
    I think when these losers come into our lives we can come out learning from what we allowed and not let it happen again. Not that I am saying not to open your heart, no but there are so many stupid clues that we overlook when we first fall hard that we are willing to say nothing and allow because we see the 'good'.
    Don't let him steal time from your life, I know that there will be times when you will miss him in such a strong way or miss his smell or something will happen that will remind you of him, go ahead and cry and don't stop praying for it to stop hurting. It will evidently, just not right away.
  • hopeandfaith said on Dec 22, 2006....
    Thank you all for your supportive comments.They allow me to exhale and get up and get going. k2wench-I agree with you-what I tolerated, I encouraged. Gingersoul- thank you, you are the first person that has told me I don't have to pretend or rush.For all my friends and family I have to wear the brave face.Here I can be truthful about how it hurts so much and how lost I feel. Thank you all for taking the time to read and respond.
  • gingersoul said on Dec 22, 2006....

    I am glad you find this place supporting and comforting....i am glad to have helped you a little bit.. :-)

    dont be afraid to communicate your feelings..its healthy...you need to get them out of your system...

    i did the same mistake i am warning you not to do ...i rushed too early in a new relationship after my divorce...i wasn't ready, i was feeling pressured in jumping on the horse again as to speak...

    in the end i only hurt two people: the great guy i broke up with and myself...i had to start my grieving process all over again..

     

    because this is what you are doing...you are grieving the end of your love...its as a long and sas process..

    but you will make it...be sure of of it...{{[hugs}}

  • Bronx said on Dec 22, 2006....
    Hope: sorry about your present state of mind. Wish I had an appropriate post to drown out your heartache.

    It will pass, with time, if you allow that to happen. Take care.
  • lovethingy said on Dec 24, 2006....
    its like you have lots of ideas , id like to know if you can give advices to teen love problems and sad love stories they are posting in my website ?
    yes there are so many teens needing advice for their love problems.
    sad love story
  • MsBradford07 said on Dec 28, 2006....
    If you love something you gotta let it go, and if it's your's it will come back.

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