I read your entry about your meeting with your brother--I know how hard it was for you, yet you did so anyway. And even if things had gone poorly, at least there would be some comfort in the fact that you tried.
And maybe in the process you both learned something about one another (pleasant, I hope!).
Anyway, I am rather prone to such fits myself, so I understand your situation. I still have a difficult time letting things go--I find SoulCast to be great stress relief--therapy, if you will.
I noticed your roommate plays WarCraft. Are you a gamer, too? Your name, SoulReaver reminds me of a Legacy of Cain video game. Just curious.
Take a look on this...
About our health, we usually want everything to be clean. From the food we eat, our environment, everything!. But, don't you think if we get ourselves so clean and not allowing our immune system to develop imuunity to some microbes or bacteria or viruses will make our health strong? There'll be no anti-bodies that'll protect us from common sickness.
Being so good all their life make themselves weak.