Okay, i’m 21 and I recently graduated from college and had 3 bfs, but I seem to get a crush on my officemate... I wonder, am I too old to get a crush or a zit on my face?
You're never too old to feel like a school girl all over again....
HELL NO! Even if I’m not a teenager anymore, I can still have crushes and oh yeah zits..... That’s the beauty of life. I know its just a crush because I admire the guy and I’m not planning to do anything about it... why? Because the guy has a girlfriend and the guy is my officemate... I don’t want any complications at the office... I have too much drama in my personal life that I wouldn’t dare include more drama from the office. BTW, the zit is caused by my wild hormones... got PMS.
HOW DID EVERYTHING STARTED...
When I was just new in our company, he was the one who distributes the modules that we, the programmers should code. At first, I didn’t quite notice him for his looks because I was looking at someone else, but as time passed by and I became friends with a lot of people from our department, I realized that he is quite cute... And I mean cute by my standards...
When he was teaching me what to do, one of our officemates took a picture of the two of us (my crush and me...) At first it was nothing, but my guy officemates passed on the picture and told everybody that it was a scandal at the office {it was really a joke and the picture was innocent...} SO I was just letting things pass but whenever he is near, I can smell that damn cologne... and believe me, he smells really good, the kind of smell that arouses you.... my goodness. I know that he is a great guy and even though at times he treats me as one of the guys, I know that he is a gentleman. You see, every morning, our team including my crush eats breakfast at the food court in our building... We talk about various things, from the job, home life, love life, and even sex life... I like it when he talks about sex, because the conversation is not perverted, on the contrary, he really gives great advice even if its a little green at times... I like it when he tells me that I should talk to my mom and show her that I’m all grown up. I like it when he approaches me and touches my shoulder. I like it when he Ims me and we flirt a little. I like it when he kids around and we share food... I like it when he acts all brotherly...
There was an incident earlier when I was surfing the internet, he appeared behind my back... I was a bit surprised but I still smelled that damn cologne... I didn’t know that he was looking over my shoulder and was trying to tell me something. He was asking if he could view a code that we did months before... I said okay and I let him explore my computer... to my embarassment, he stumbled upon a personal folder of mine which contains the pictures of guys that I am seeing (yuh, i am not exclusively dating anyone at the moment... ) and some other pictures of our friends. SO in short, I was embarrassed and he was asking who they were or if they were my ex. I told him the truth...:D hehehee... He also knows that I like Jason... the six pack guy... He even joked that if the guys would hurt me or make a fool out of me, especially the six pack guy {Jason}, I’ll just call him and he would gather his friends and beat the crap out of Jason... as if! Of course it was a joke, but I can see that he acts like a big brother {though he is only 23}.... and I do appreciate it... Damn, while he was even browsing my computer, I could still smell again that damn cologne... Hmm.... My goodness, I hate that damn cologne, it does all those crazy things to my senses.... DAZED... get a hold of yourself....
So why not tell him that I have a crush on him... Well its just a crush.. It’ll pass. Second he has a girlfriend, and from our conversations, I know that he is happy with his girlfriend, and he even told me once that he found the one... And I’m a little jealous but at the same time really happy... I just wish I could be with someone just like him...I don’t even know if he likes me like that...Last, he knows I work hard but I play harder and I don’t want to ruin my office life...
For now... I am contented by being his friend and smelling that damn cologne... It’ll pass, I know it will. For now, it ain’t bad to fantasize about him just a little. Its just a little crush.... no harm there.
So here’s a video entitle Just A Little Crush by Jeniffer Paige... which really expresses how I feel. Enjoy.
Cheers!
