• thexperfectximperfection said on Nov 23, 2006....

  I won't bother you with details but, i feel there is very little meaning in my life at the moment neither. I stick it out because I know there are highs and lows and there will be better times. Ones that i'll want to be here for. I'm sorry about your class trip. I empathize, I really do. Not that it's any of my buisness, but if you ever feel like talking to someone who won't judge, I'm a pretty good listener.
   
  So...you're not from America. Cool.  Which country did you come here from?
   
  From, Just Another Freak.

• moonriver said on Nov 23, 2006....

  moonriver confucius say: me meaning to say hi to thegirl, but you two go ahead and indulge in girl talk, while this half-chinese uncle do some early morning taichi.
  

• pickersplock said on Nov 23, 2006....

  If you die you'll never find out how your
  story ends, maybe there's a happy
  ending!  Don't you really want to find out?

• Frlncwrtr said on Nov 23, 2006....

  Girl:
  You are very non-descript. What is troubling you so badly that you do not want to live?
  Why do you think life is too much pain?
   
  I do not know you and have no tight to tell you what I think is best for you, but you posted this for a reason, right?
   
  It is very sad, and not the 'norm' for someone to say that ever since I was a young girl, I've wanted to die. You are much to young to die, or to want to die. So, my advice to you is to seek out professional help/counseling immediately.    
   
  In addition, I recommend that develop friendships here at Soulcast, as well as in real life. Stay in contact with these people, and do not spend much time alone until you get past this situation.
   
  Good Luck! 

• IFMU said on Nov 23, 2006....

  Believe me when I say I understand the feeling. Ive dealt with the same thoughts/emotions for as long as I can remember.
  Wish I could say something positive/upbeat/optimistic, but it would be ultimately hypocritical of me since I know I would fail to believe it myself.
  I must admit, the statement above by pickersplock,
  

  • pickersplock said about 3 hours ago...

    If you die you'll never find out how your
    story ends, maybe there's a happy
    ending!  Don't you really want to find out?
  is the best I have ever heard quite honestly. A rather interesting way to put it IMO.
  Ah well, while I am nobody special online, I offer an open ear as it were if you would be interested.
  
  IFMU
  

• ALIENated said on Nov 23, 2006....

  I have never wanted to die, but I have often wondered what the true meaning of life is. I have an answer for me, but I could not really say for you. You have to figure that out. If you are a teenager, I will assure you that the feelings you are having will most likely pass. The teen years are pretty rough on the self esteem and lots of other areas of our psyche. It is a period of wanting to fly out of the next, but at the same time fearing we will crash to the ground. My child (late teens) is adament about living away from home. However, a sickness this week caused an immediate return to the nest for mom and dad's care. Usually, in our twenties we get too busy to think that much about our situation. We are too busy trying to provide for ourselves. Must find food lest we starve. Starving is no way to die. Then someone volunteers to marry us and then we have kids. All focus is gone from us now. No time for anything. Just run in place to keep up. Kids are grown, grandkids replace them. Still no time. Soon death comes and we really do welcome it, but by then we know the meaning of life. To love and be loved. That was the answer for me. I bet it is the answer for you as well. God, during His short visit to our little planet, mentioned the two things He thinks are most important: to love Him and to love each other. Start loving and caring for others. Soon you will start loving and caring for yourself.

• JadeLondon said on Nov 23, 2006....

  I have felt as you do at times. My children help me to persevere. I hope you find a way to feel better.

• thegirl said on Nov 25, 2006....

  Thank-you for all your helpfull comments! I espacial love this one:

  If you die you'll never find out how your

  story ends, maybe there's a happy

  ending!  Don't you really want to find out?

• Fire-flower said on Apr 26, 2008....

  I really, really understand. I spent 37 years of my life wanting to die, sometimes to an acute degree, and sometimes less so. I know exactly what you are saying - there are so many people who want life, and it's taken from them, while you sit stuck with it. The oddest thing happened though - about 6 years ago I realized that 'my trials had not been in vain' (to paraphrase Van Morrison). Somehow I found meaning in everything that I had been through, and there's not much I would change.
  This type of life is like climbing Mount Everest. It's exhausting, and you are bruised and pushed beyond all endurance. You just want to give up. Then one day you turn around, and suddenly you see how high you've climbed, and the view is just beautiful. You still have to keep climbing, and you still get bruised and exhausted, but this time you know, when you get a chance to turn around and look, the view will be even more exquisite, and meaningful. And you will have earned the right to it.

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