Little one choked at lunch today - and I mean honestly choked, as in could neither cough nor breathe.
It's happened maybe twice before. Usually a thump or two in that head-down position brings the food right up and we continue on our way.
Not this time. Her face was getting red-purple and darkening, and nothing was happening. I couldn't get the food up and I didn't dare increase the force I was using any further. I thought of 911 and how I was without a car and how an amublance, though fast, probably wouldn't get here in time (~3 or 4 minutes at the speediest, by my best reckoning). For the first time ever, I thought I might really lose her.
This is how it happens, OMG, I thought. Little kids really die from this! I shifted her weight so I could get the phone, and something about the way I moved her must have helped because the food suddenly dislodged and landed on the floor. It amazed me how quickly she went from that angry purple-red color to pink and then back to normal. She even grinned at me not 30 seconds later, like "See? I'm ok."
She might be, but it's gonna take a good hour or so before I stop shaking.
I know that almost every little kid chokes at some point (she has before, though not quite to this extent, as I mentioned), but there's nothing like understanding that your child cannot breathe and you may not be able to help her in time despite your best efforts.
She's getting tons of extra hugs and kisses today, and now I have something else to underline that you should NEVER take a minute for granted with your loved ones. Overdramatic? Maybe - but you weren't there. ;-) I feel so grateful that she's running around right this minute, because it could have been different.



