I don't know if it's good to think positive first about the people I meet whether offline or online. Some appear to be nice and harmless. And I would go out of my way to befriend those who have shown the same interest in me. Reciprocity is a key ingredient in budding and enduring relationships - romantic or otherwise. It would be dishonest of me to say that I don't expect anything in return. But it doesn't even cost a cent to smile back or ask basic personal questions, too. I share what I can in a sincere and honest way; yet, I often deal with two-faced, even 'tupperware'-like people who only treat you good when they can use you to suit their end.

I often find myself regretting the times when I willingfully traded secrets with unknown strangers. I thought I have found a friend or two, but only to realize I was just imagining things. It's really hard to nurture adult relationships, much less establish or begin genuine ones. There's no guarantee - in anything - that everything will be okay. It's just that I do need someone to talk to and share my thoughts with - and I intend to return the favor. Not just listen - but understand, and hopefully love and be loved again.

I hope to master myself. And start taking good control of my emotions. I've been hurt by my own gullibility. Derided even. I know I shouldn't believe everything that other people tell me. I know that there's a pinocchio reigning in each of us, trying to hide the skeletons, or simply to make ourselves believe that we can be above or beyond our sheer imperfections as humans.

I've been burned and wounded deeply. And at this point, I'm in the process of healing those hurts. But despite my disappointments, I still hope that the one who'll love the real me is someone who won't take advantage of my vulnerabilities or play with my emotions. And I would do the same.