I grew up as a Lutheran, went to a Lutheran school, and received what I think is a pretty good Christian foundation. My mom would dress me in fancy hair bows and shinny shoes, and off we’d go. I had my share of “bug” juice and cookies at Vacation Bible School. I made some good friends and had some good times. Maybe life kicked me around one too many times-- I don’t know-- but I began to ponder the religious beliefs I had been taught to have. There are just too many things that I can no longer believe.
While I believe Jesus was “a” messiah, I just can’t believe that the Creator would only focus on one geographic area, and forget about the rest of the world. I can’t accept that only those people who happened see, hear or learn of Jesus will be “saved.” I believe if the Creator provided a Savior for one people, then people in other parts of the world would not be forgotten. Also, studying world history, the book we know as the Bible changed hands several different times. How many times has (hu)man be confronted with an opportunity to “alter or falsify documents” that (s)he didn’t take advantage of? From Constantine to whoever is the brains behind the newer publications of the Bible. Perhaps the entire book is the manifestation of someone’s creative urge. I also believe there are other ancient texts that have been confiscated (or even destroyed) that would have provide more answers to questions, that would have made our lives better, that have been withheld from us.
What I have come to believe is that the Creator is in me, and I in It. I think the bible and the entire concept of church has been used to control and maintain a cheap labor force for the elite. I think the church, historically, suppresses, oppresses and blocks us from tapping into our true divine natures. I believe that everything we need is inside of us (provided by the Creator), but we’ve been lied to and made to believe that we are powerless.



