Letting Go hasn't always been easy for me. I struggled for obvious reasons with my Mom's alcoholism. I eventually learned to let go of trying to control her disease with much pain and heartache only to find myself struggling again and again with "letting go". It seems once we get beyond one struggle another one shows up this time in a different form. If I'm not learning to "let go" of controlling my Mother's disease I am learning I can't control a boyfriend, a friend, a husband or my kids. I realize now that God just kept putting these lessons in front of me because I still had work to do and it was a BIG learning curve for me!
But this week something happened and I had one of those moments...you know Oprah might call it a Ah-ha moment, the light bulb went on and I realized I have finally turned the corner.
You see I had a person in my life say something very horrible about me that was a complete lie. These words could not of only hurt me but my husband and our family dynamic if he believed the lie. Luckily, he is smarter than that and knows how much of liar this person is and how her journey thus far isn't anywhere near where I am or he is.
In the past I would have confronted her and made sure she knew I knew what she said for the sake of my Ego being right and so "people" wouldn't think this was true of me. But this time, this time it was so different. I heard the words and for a moment was taken aback. Then I silently asked God to give me time to process this and not react too hastily. Within hours I felt a peace, a knowing deep withing my soul. I knew that it wasn't worth my time, my breath, to even react to such a deep vindictive lie. I thought this person must have had to deal with some profond hurt in her life for her to be so hurtful to me. I prayed for her and forgave her right then-then I Let It Go.
I love how that has made me feel! It is worth so much more than "being right" or foresaking a lie.