my story of love is pretty dramatic.
i've been from a relationships that we can call right love in a wrong time,,,, I thought that man was the right for me, my mistake i set my mind that he will be my man to marry someday, ooopsss!big mistake.. what i found was another stupid and coward .. i feel trap since then,, a man without self decision.
He always follow his mother even it means that she marry another woman just to follow tradition and worst part is he never told me. I was cheated!
he said will go to vacation somewhere in europe,,just one to two weeks only. just right time to cheat especially when i was so busy attending my work demands, i was administrative assistant then of the company i was working before, i was super busy...

When i found out about the marraige i was devastated. my life shattered again, its really hard to trust another man again, i feel i was dying that time.. i loose my hope and dreams, im crazy too... i try to finish my life that time,, but God never allow it to happen.

I was living dead that time,i go to work and back home, no social life, i keep myself away from all. i just do my work to the best that i can do. but most of the time i cry... then another chance he call me back again, he wants to see me again,, i thought it is my chance to fight back to him, to let him feel the pain and be cheated!!! i answer his call "yes!" what do you want for me?" i ask strongly but my body is shaking,, " how are you?" he ask me casually, "you dont have any right to ask me anymore" i reply to him, "why?" he said like innocent baby. he is so idiot to think that im going back to him again. No way! not anymore he is not the only man in this world, i marked it on my mind and my heart. Put inside my mind that i have my mother to think and care not to worry and feel sad. So i have to be strong and move on..

That time my friend has visitor in the sala,, another broken heart, a good man mending his broken heart trught a stupid girl. they hear me talk to the phone that time. i cried so much not because he is cheated but because i feel bad about my self. why i always ended in a wrong one? I ask my self, am i too easy? i thought im not, im strong and well discipline but what happen to me?
My friend talk to me, she gave me a long litany of wake up call, "what are you doing to yourself?" are you stupid to cry for someone whos is not worthy of your attention and love?" There is a lot of people around and you canf ind better than him. As i mark to my mind i will never fall in love again, never! i hate man!!!!
i think i hate all men in this worl that time,, aside from my brother and father no one at all. In my everyday life after that i hate all man!!!