It was all going so well right....Whirlwind romance. I even introduced her to Princess. Then almost immediately it changed. Wasn't sure at first. You know when you get a feeling that your been lied too, or having something held back from you. Suddenly, I got that feeling. I dismissed it, **stop being a dickhead**
Life has taught me to trust these instincts over the years. I had never felt like this though. Isn't that what they all say. So to suddenly have this gut instinct telling me something was up. Then Hot Vets actions matched my instinct. She didn't show for dinner, didn't answer her phone, was always busy. When we did finally see each other again, my gut told me "It's over buddy"
Our hello kiss....No longer did we drag ourselves towards each other. She leaned foward and at the last moment, I got the cheek turn. Yep no lips for Bozo. The conversation was buisness like. I had to ask. Once I had asked I sat back and just listened (You get 2 ears and 1 mouth.....that means you should be listening twice as much as you talk). She tried to avoid the question, talk about other things, I just repeated the question "What's going on with us?"
I got eye contact....held it. I could see the sadness, the tears building. Then I got the story. It seems history was haunting her. To be exact an ex-fiancee type of history. He was back in contact. He wanted her back. I knew she had left Adelaide 10 months earlier. I knew she had been engaged. I knew it finished because he couldn't keep it in his pants. Then I found out. He was in town. He had made the journey to win her back. Had even asked her parents for permission to marry before he left. So now she had him and her parents...plus wait to you hear this...plus the ex best friend who had slept with and dissappeared with ex-fiancee telling her. That it was her that he really loved.
I almost burst out laughing with relief...."Shit I thought I had something to worry about....like you'd want to get back with that loser after what he did"...... the words had hardly left my mouth. When I realised that I did indeed, have something to worry about. Why....because Hot Vet then listed all the reasons why I was a wonderful person. How I didn't deserve to be treated badly, How it wasn't anything I had done, how she loved me but also loved him.
Here was the kicker....."I've known him since I was 10...dated since 15 engaged for 4 years I don't want to waste all that time....I need to make it work" WTF (nope that didn't do it)
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!!!!!
There that did it.....was this the same intelligent, smart, witty and funny woman, I had fallen for at first sight. My jaw hit the ground. Was I supposed to fight, scream, laugh, get drunk. We talked. She loves me but loves him, it seems to me she has gone for better the devil you know and a repeat of all the dramas she has experienced before, over a fresh start with who knows what in the future. For the next week we chatted briefly. arranged to meet but didn't. Last night we had our last conversation. She is returning to Adelaide happily engaged I suppose.
Today....well today has been ok. I'm very matter of fact about it. Another lesson learnt.
What can you do........NEXT
