i've spent the evening perusing interesting music that i don't usually listen to.

mostly rap and R&B.... not my usual fare.

but i'm terribly surprised by the feel of some of the videos..... beautifully done.

i searched for shoes..... i have TERRIBLY large feet.
i mean seriously.
and i have a really unusual taste in shoes..... so... combine the two and it means that i CANNOT find a pair of shoes that i really love. *POUTING*

anyway, *blushing* i found cross dresser shoes.
yeah.
there are actually some very wearable styles there.
if i had much money i'd be awash in shoes right now.

i suppose it makes sense that the more outrageous the shoe the more likely it is to come in REALLY big sizes.


alas however. *sigh*

i'm also wondering if in a future life i will be any less gigantic.

i mean, i'm not just talking about my weight or anything. but i'm built like a mac truck it feels like sometimes... and that is really just so against my nature.
it's not really fair.

i just hope that in a future life if i am smaller and a more manageable size that i will value and treasure that.