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rats, toes and hating the universe but i'm still okay...

queenparanoia posted on Nov 06, 2009 | views: 85 | Tags: picture, life, rant

i'm watching ellen right now so that means i feel better...

today is a series of roller coaster ride of emotions for me.... god i'm such a drama queen...

i had a very good morning eventhough  woke up at 2 am...

morning was normal as usual the difference is i'm in a good mood. everything seems okay. i even watch the movie "district 9" which suprisingly is a very good movie.

and then i saw a rat...

a big, dirty, disgusting rat...

staring at me...

totally shocked me...

so what did i do?

took a picture of it of course...

 

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i don't know if you could see it but it's beside the doorknob...

i shouldnt be surprise right? i mean it's a hardware store of course tehre should be fricking rats!!!

it got away though...

and my mood became shit....

but then something good happened... really good... because of this event i am one step closer to my goal...

it really made me happy...

but as the day go by... more shitty customers to deal with...

the end of day was okay because i called my grandma. i'm really happy when i'm talking to her.

went home afterwards... and of course the never ending family drama...

then shit happen... sorry can't explain...

remember when i said i feel like i took a step forward towards my goals???

now it made me feel like i took two steps back...

nothing i could do but cry...

goddamit i cried in the shower again....

i surprisingly i cried for a few minutes.... feel shitty for a couple of hours...

and now i'm watching ellen...

and once in a while i keep looking at my toes...

i got a very good pedicure two days ago. i dont really like my toes because i dont think theyre pretty but after a pedicure and red nail polish...

they look sexy...

i love em...

it's one of my secrets of instant positive... look at my red, sexy toes... :-)

i know it's temporary because later i would feel shit again...

it's like the universe is playing shitty games on me...

it's like my dreams are a few steps away and then when i have a few taste of it it turns to shit...

oh shit...

i don't make sense anymore...

i need to look at my toes again...

but i feel a lot better than before...

 



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  • Me-Myself&I said on Nov 06, 2009....

    lol.... well Queenie, if you keep looking at those sexy toes..... you may trip, stumble and fall.... you got to watch where you are going!

    i hope the universe gets tried of playing this game, or....OR you choose to win, and show who is boss!  *smile*

    have a great weekend....you and thoses toes of yours! xo

  • queenparanoia said on Nov 06, 2009....
    memyself: i'm trying to the universe i am in control of my destiny... it's justsometimes other people think what's they think would make me happy... problem i already know what my hapines is and i'm following it...
  • Me-Myself&I said on Nov 06, 2009....

    you need a vacation! come see me and i'll show you how country folks live. time slows down here so you can breathe. *smile*

    i know you are holding fast to your dreams. just don't give up and fight a good fight..... you will win, i promise you! *smile*

  • uniquely-ironic said on Nov 06, 2009....
    I almost screamed and stood on top of my desk ..... then I realized that it was a picture. lol
     
    Yucky!
  • Hegemone said on Nov 06, 2009....
    Hey, check this info out Queenie ...

    Rat Personality
    While most people would not consider rats as charming, the Chinese ideograph for rat also means hamster, mouse, and other small, furry rodents. Rats tend to be creative and can adapt to almost any situation. While bright and sociable, Rats can also be ostentatious and ambitious in a negative way.

    Rat Symbolism
    Rats are associated with the first hours of each day, being one of the few animals active at that time. As such, Rats represent a beginning.

    Rat People
    Plato, Mozart, Tchaikovsky, Lev Tolstoy

    So maybe seeing that rat coulda been a good omen?
  • queenparanoia said on Nov 06, 2009....
    memyself: i do miss the country... or in country we call it the province...
     
    uniquely: yeah i know it's digusting...
     
    hegemone: well maybe... :-)
  • travelr712 said on Nov 06, 2009....
    things'll get better qpdoll, they always do :-)
  • MsStar39 said on Nov 07, 2009....
    Queenie i do not like rats, some people have them as pets.
     Keep looking at those sexy toes and stay in a happy mood.
  • queenparanoia said on Nov 07, 2009....
    trav: and they did... :-)
     
    mstar: i will... :-)

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