I have issues.  I seem happier to other people now.  Still, I have suicidal thoughts sometimes.  I just don't show it anymore really.  I figured that I would share it here.  I'm torn about what I should do still.  Part of me wants to try and go back to work while the other side is scared to death.  I am afraid that everything would fall apart on me.  Then again, I am simply bored of life the way it is now.  I take long naps during the day.  It doesn't prevent time from dragging ass.  On the other hand, I am deathly afraid that the torment I dealt with before will happen again.  I don't know what to do.  I can't seem to make up my mind.