A blog will appear here in due time...

I am still feeling vulnerable, but the exercise and purpose of this 365 days is facing "myself".  And even if I can´t express myself now, I am making a note (blog post) to come back to, when I am ready to write out something that I would like to mark as a special day.

I wanted to record on this blog, how P´s mom, drove me to Germany to bring the girls to K, and how we all had a wonderful lunch together.

I wanted to record on this blog, how B, and I giggled in the car together, while finding our way back home using the Netherlands map from 1983 because we missed an exit.

I wanted to record how happy I was, how absolutely blessed I feel because I have what I longed for...

I want to record all these, when I don´t feel like shit anymore... when I am not trying hard not to hate myself...

For now, I will enjoy P´s warm strong embrace assuring me, everything will be alright.  And I might not remember all the words from the 2 hours talk I had with B today, while going through a terrible anxiety/panic attack, but the feeling of acceptance and love, will always remain with me.

So when this bumps up again in your conversation, I hope you will get a smile from the images, that made me smile yesterday, images that made my spirit soar.