here i am doin the shit i'm supposed to do and feeling crappy while doin it (not sex--the daily grind--still not talking about sex)...and i totally wish i had just not did the shit.

on a different note: christmas (born a christian) is like 2 months awayish and i already want the place to be done to the 9's in red, green, santas, trees, lights, ornaments. but can't find the little tree! oh, the garage and i have a bad relationship.

everywhere i drive i see signs. no, not just talkin about street signs. and i'm not thinking about any sort of weird signs. but signs with like 2 letters on them and an arrow pointing this way or that. i immediately try and think of what tv show or movie is filming there. but fuck, for the life of me i can't think what "RJ" would stand for. please say it's not "For the love of Ray J" or whatever the fuck his name is.