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Tears well up in my blue eyes tonight, though they will not fall.  My emotions are pulling, tugging at my heart.  I want something, someone to hold.  Dino comes to mind.  I want comfort and peace, he brings that to me.  Then the thought creeps in of the other boy who captured my heart.  I miss the love that was between us.  I miss the laughter and smiles.  I miss my Best Friend.

I just want the friendship, not the relationship.  Really I'm fine with us just being friends.  I wish he hadn't lied to me, I wish he didn't retaliate in his hurt.

I want Dino.  He makes me feel better, always makes me smile... always listens and cares about me.  He has never ran out on me when I've been depressed.  I want my Dino! =(

It doesn't help me that I've been tossing and turning for an hour or more.  That I'm listening to slightly depressing music.  That I'm in such a cuddly mood.  That it hurts being punched, and kicked while your down.

I guess I should try and get to bed.... oh one more thing, Dino is not the "rebound" just believe me when I say this.  There are things I don't wish to explain, and my feelings for Dino are genuine and true, and will last if they are cared for and given time to bloom.


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  • jebusiamnt665 said on Nov 03, 2009....
    Maybe if things were different
    Maybe if we never met
    Maybe if I didn't exist
    Things would've been better off...

    Gah! I feel like shit... :(
  • Hegemone said on Nov 03, 2009....
    Simply, sounds like you're in a rough patch.  Time to pull together those forces of motivation and get yourself striking out for some happiness again, as these feelings will only hold you down, and back, and they will hinder the growth of those wonderful feelings for/with Dino.  I hope you were able to get some sleep, and I hope you're feeling good today.  Don't let the negative/sad feelings win, they're not worth it, you are totally more important than that.
  • mixednuts said on Nov 03, 2009....
    Nothing is worse then hearing that you are not happy! I hope that you got some sleep.
  • simplyconfused said on Nov 03, 2009....
    jebus - TURN THAT FROWN =( UPSIDE DOWN! =D

    hege - I'm 10 times better today ^_^  It was just a late night rut, 90% of the time that's when I get hit the hardest with any emotions, as there is no hustle or bustle just laying trying to sleep.  I can't let the feelings win, I'm better than that.  *kicks negative feelings ass*

    mixed - I'm in a rather fetching mood today ^_^ and I did eventually fall asleep =)
  • bad_lucy said on Nov 03, 2009....
    The bad lucy says to party down!
  • simplyconfused said on Nov 03, 2009....
    Totally did today after I was all hyper! =p  I listened well... totally just read ur mind ya know XD
  • Mr.Strange said on Nov 03, 2009....
    I really like how you wrote this.

    I think rather then focusing on who you want, focus on what you want and be open to the idea that it may come from another.
  • simplyconfused said on Nov 03, 2009....
    Thank you mister strange.
    mmm, I'm for sure going to be doing that.  Thank you. =]
  • mixednuts said on Nov 04, 2009....
    You must be feeling great after yesterday! As Yoda would say..."good it is "
  • simplyconfused said on Nov 04, 2009....
    I'm feeling aiigh atm COLD and TIRED but thats about it!
  • jebusiamnt665 said on Nov 05, 2009....
    *turns frown into pie* :D

    Sorry about the depressing comment. :/ Too many negative thoughts were going through my mind at that moment.

    And yeah! Kick negativity's metaphorically personified arse!! Bite 'em!! Scratch its eyes out!! Make its postierre nonexistent!! You can do eet!!

    Mmmm... pie...
  • simplyconfused said on Nov 05, 2009....
    =D YAY!  oh gosh it's fine, I liked what it said, but damn straight I'll kick negativity's metaphorically personified arse!  Limbs, Teeth, Nails!  All will be involved!
  • jebusiamnt665 said on Nov 06, 2009....
    Rock on chica!! \m/

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