This weekend I took two very long walks. I love walking and these walks were at a great time when the tide of the bay was out. Beautiful scenery to watch the birds picking through the silt for food, etc.
But!
My stupid brain also took advantage of the fact that I wasn't hooked into the computer or TV to work me over. I made the fatal mistake of listening to my iPod as I walked, and my brain turned evey song I listened to into an opportunity to point out my faults.
I really need to do something about that brain. I may have a couple of drinks and kill a few brain cells just to get even! lol
It did however cause me to question what motivates my life. I usually avoid those kinds of questions because I don't like the answers I give myself. I don't like to admit that the fear of being alone has any role in my life. I want to think I'm pretty good at entertaining myself and that I like my own company just fine. But I'm honest.
I think we all fear being alone. It is a bigger part of some people's life than others. There are few rare exceptions to this. I am thinking that the sooner I face up to the fact that it's okay to not want to be alone that I will have an easier time being alone.
That's pretty much it for my weekend.
