Right, one of my first blogs on here was about how I’m hetrosexual and proud, but I did have some bi curious thoughts as a teen.

Sexuality, I believe, isn’t black and white, like most people think. I think it’s a spectrum. This is easiest to explain as a percentage, with 0% being totally straight, would never consider even touching another member of the same sex, revolted by the gender of the same sex (Homophobia doesn’t come into it, they can TOLERATE homosexuals and still really not get turned on by homosexuality). 100% is basically the opposite, fully homosexual. With 50% being totally bisexual, getting equal pleasure from homosexual sex and gay sex, possibly even going as far as having a same sex partner and breaking up with that partner and getting one of the opposite gender without really thinking about it.

So it’s a spectrum. I figured I was about 10%. Really straight but not totally repulsed by men.

Then I discovered a website, youporn.com and xvideos.net. I basically used these sites, as well as kink.com and allinternal.com to rethink my sexuality. I started off exploring straight porn, found maybe a few niches within the confines of heterosexuality that I might be trying soon. And then I began to explore bisexual and gay porn.

Right don’t be repulsed! There are many inactive bisexuals, for whom homosexuality is a fantasy, and they like the idea of having homosexual sex but don’t actually WANT to do it.

I thought maybe I was that.

In other cultures, by the way, a long time ago, there was no such thing as homosexual or heterosexual, everyone was considered bi, even as recently as late 1800s Russia people would fuck who they fancied, gender regardless. Spartans, Romans, Greeks, all did the same. I think the Spartans actually had a fuck buddy within their army to help strengthen the bond between troops, as well as a wife back home.

So I began to think, maybe calling ourselves straight or gay is something we, as a society, have invented to help classify ourselves? I think religion helped the classification of people, (this isn’t a dig at religion by the way), as well as laws and the formation of culture (humans need order).

So maybe there IS NO SPECTURM? And I was wondering, can I classify myself as ANYTHING anymore? Inactively bisexual? Experimental? Confused?

Last night I was discussing my sexuality with a close friend who has given up on trying to classify himself, and he fools around with both genders respectively. Because I have a lot more heterosexual experience than he does, and I told him about my inactive bisexuality, we coined a phrase ‘Omnisexual’, which I think works quite well - I’ll do pretty or much anything and get a kick, if its vanilla sex, BDSM, BBW, skinny chicks, oral, anal, rimming, pissing - who gives a fuck, I’m just here to enjoy myself, right?

I haven’t actually done anything that wasn’t fun.

I went on youporn chat, and chatted to a couple of inactive bisexuals, and full homosexuals who don’t actually do it, confused people, the works. I met a guy, who is a lot like me in his confusion. We decided to meet for drinks and see where things go. We haven’t done this, he’s on holiday at the moment.

This morning I was feeling especially, umm, bisexual. I mean I wouldn’t have turned down a woman, but I was feeling really experimental. I found an ad on Gumtree for a gay who just wanted to suck someone off.

I sent him my number at about midday, and we chatted a LOT. About how sometimes you will want to do anal, sometimes you won’t, and I think sometimes I’m bi, sometimes I’m not.

I went round to his flat at about 2pm, and had a coffee and a chat. I was a little nervous about being forced into something or even raped, but then I remembered - he is a 9 stone social worker. I’m 18 stone and pretty tough.

We talked in detail about my situation. He said he wouldn’t want me to do anything that wasn’t comfortable for me. I’m not really into kissing guys.

After about an hour, I took off his trousers. It felt wrong, but maybe that’s because I’m SOOO used to women.

As I was sucking, I was thinking - yesterday I was pretty sure I was straight. Now I’m sucking a guy’s cock.

Cum is another interesting thing. Unique taste. I think I need to be totally in the mindset for this sort of thing. Today I pretty or much was.

Tell you what he was amazing at sucking cock. I’ve never had such a good blow job of any woman. Ever. Not even close! We spent some time having a 69, and I licked his testicles and butt. I’ve rimmed women before, but it felt strange, having balls on my chin rather than a damp pussy. Weird.

He told me I was far too big for anal sex. I don’t know if that’s good or not. He is more into oral than anal anyway. I came in his mouth, which didn’t help my confusion.

So now I’m really fucking lost. I think I enjoyed it, but it was only one experience with a guy, so I just don’t properly know yet.

My first time with a woman was different, I was 15 years old and a bucket of hormones, out drinking in the streets, which was illegal, with a fake ID. This girl and I wound up in a nettle bed. Halfway through I stopped to have a fight (I was slightly wild, I think, back then). I was REALLY drunk, and so was she. We thought the nettle bed was a bush, and we weren’t sober enough or naked enough to feel the stings! I mean it wasn’t special and lovely, but fuck me what a classic! I enjoyed the sensation, but that was a bit different to today. I mean I was nuzzling her neck, kissing her softly, touching each other… I think losing your virginity to a woman gives you a massive feeling of achievement.

Oh, I asked out an absolutely stunning blond last night because I was hammered. She said yes, about ten minutes ago, so I might be back into a relationship with a woman, rendering exploring other lines of sexual exploration unlikely.

I think I’m at 30% if there is a spectrum. Can derive pleasure from homosexual sex, but much prefers heterosexual sex. But who knows what I am? And why does it matter?

Thanks for reading friends. AOIO, if you read this keep it to yourself, and we’ll discuss it later. PROMISE!