Growing up, I was used to leaving when things got rough. I'd do my best to keep from being too involved.I hurt a lot of people along the way, so in order to stop, I left. You asked me why I ask so many questions. The reason for that is simple. You know me better than almost anybody adn I don't know you. Yet, as much as you know about me, there are still some things you don't know. So read this and then let me know what you think you still know to be true about me.  

 

 

 

 

My brothers/Why'd you have to die to discover/What I've been telling you all along/Living life in the fast lane/Without you things won't be the same

 

I'm dreamin/All the fake ass people that keep scheiming/They tell me that I'm wrong/What do they know of my pain/They don't see what it is I've gained

 

Hey momma/No one really cares about your drama/Keep crying that same old song/Babies driving you insane/Daddy's gone and you feel the pain

 

Yo daddy/you really messed up all your karma/Took too many hits off that bong/Shaved a few years of your life/Now you're missing your kids and wife

 

 

Never had the courage,

Never had the nerve,

To face all my fears,

And break out my reserve.

 

Pretending to be something,

That I know I'm not,

Turmoil built up inside me,

Until my blood runs hot

 

See what I cannot show you,

That which I am meant to be.

So that no more may I scream,

Alone in silent misery.

 

I hold my truths apart from you,

Yet even face to face,

The mirror holds my darkest lie.

Holding onto this wicked embrace.

 

Deep inside I'm all cried out,

Over my lies and my deceit.

Yet from the truth, I still run,

Embarassed by my cruel retreat.

 

Never in all your lifetimes,

Will you ever guess.

The true reason for my suffering.

I brought on my unhappiness.

 

We should have stayed just friends.

That's where my dream died from the start.

Instead we met in secrecy.

And I was left with a broken heart.

If I told you what I did,

You'd never look at me the same.

You'd think I played you all along,

As if life were just a game.

I gave away the one thing,

That could never be returned.

I never let my guard down.

Not even when with you.

My life was in total disarray.

I was young and had nothing.

Inside I was simply afraid.

Leaving was the only way,

To keep you from being burned.

I would have given you everything,

Carried all your pain and strife.

It would have been wrong that way,

So I took away a life.