• mixednuts said on Oct 30, 2009....

  Repeat after me:
  I AM SOMEBODY!
  I AM SOMEBODY!!!!!!

• simplyconfused said on Oct 30, 2009....

  "I AM SOMEBODY!
   I AM SOMEBODY!!!!!!"

• mixednuts said on Oct 30, 2009....

  YOU ARE SOMEBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!

• mixednuts said on Oct 30, 2009....

  Like it or not...YOU ARE SOMEONE SPECIAL !!!!!!!!!

• simplyconfused said on Oct 30, 2009....

  Thank you. =]

• Me-Myself&I said on Oct 30, 2009....

  you thought that out real nicely! yup, folks come into your life for a purpose and saddly leave when their mission is finish. there is a saying or .... anyway, it went something like this...

  when you need me and don't want me.... i'll stay. when you don't need me anymore but want me.... i must leave. sigh............. *smile*

  i have been blessed to cross paths with special folks that have served a single great purpose!

• simplyconfused said on Oct 30, 2009....

  Thank you. =]
  
  
  "when you need me and don't want me, I'll stay.  When you don't need me anymore, but want me, I must leave."  It's so so bittersweet.  You have to appreciate these people, and what they have done.  And I do appreciate all that he has done for me very very muchly. =]

• travelr712 said on Oct 30, 2009....

  first, the person you need to make the promise about not cutting yourself is to you and no one else.

  well no actually, that's the only thing.

• simplyconfused said on Oct 30, 2009....

  I know, and I did.  Though if certain events didn't happen and I WAS in that bad state, I just wouldn't care about MYSELF, I'd just want to hurt myself, and maybe spite others, which would just be hurting myself.

• travelr712 said on Oct 30, 2009....

  so since you've put it out there for public discussion sc, why do you hate yourself so much?

• simplyconfused said on Oct 30, 2009....

  I no longer "hate" myself, I'm all right with myself now.  I used to think that I was undeserving of anything and everything, that I was not worth anybodies time and that nobody really deeply cared for me.  I really didn't think I was a good person... I really don't know why I hated myself so much.. there were many factors, my mom making me fee like I wasn't good enough ever, friends seeming to not care or want me around, and especially kids from where I used to live.  They were so mean and that's where any self esteem I had was ripped away from me...
  
  
  But what's important is that I'm feeling better about myself now.

• travelr712 said on Oct 30, 2009....

  well i like you. if that is worth anything, from just a screen name on an anonymous blog.

• simplyconfused said on Oct 30, 2009....

  Thank you. =]  It is worth more than you might expect. 

• travelr712 said on Oct 30, 2009....

  i'm glad you feel that way :-)

• Hegemone said on Oct 30, 2009....

  Well I like this post in that you acknowledge that there are others around you who care and want to see you happy and healthy.  It sounds like a scary path you COULD have taken, but didn't.  It can boggle the mind when we go back and think about what could have been if something would have been different.  But I like how you've looked to the positive side of this, and you wish to continue on that positive path.  Good for you!

• jebusiamnt665 said on Oct 31, 2009....

  Sad... but I guess that's just how reality is.
  
  At the end of the day, we just have to make do with what we have left... memories.
  
  There's no point in blaming or hurting yourself. You'll end up regretting it. Trust me. It just leads to more self-hatred.
  
  Continue with the positive, but be pessimistic from time to time. It helps lessen the surprise of loss.
  

• simplyconfused said on Oct 31, 2009....

  travelr - =]
  
  
  hege - Thank you, I just randomly thought about it for a moment and shoved it into a blog.  I won't obsess over it or anything, that would kill me XD
  
  
  jebus - No, I'm not blaming or hurting myself.  I've done a lot of work in the past year on accepting myself and not blaming myself for everything. ^_^

• jebusiamnt665 said on Nov 01, 2009....

  *sniff* They grow up so fast! :')
  
  :P
  
  It's funny how everybody else seems to be able to work on themselves... guess I'm just that lazy. :/
  

• simplyconfused said on Nov 01, 2009....

  ha ha ha =p ur great
  it takes a LOONG time and there can be A LOT of bumps in the road :P

• jebusiamnt665 said on Nov 02, 2009....

  And I'm an impatient fucknut, but that's nobody's fault. I'll learn to be patient in time... I hope...

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