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a promise to myself...

queenparanoia posted on Oct 30, 2009 | views: 86 | Tags: a promise to myself, life, You
today i made a promise to myself...
 
something that i will keep until the right time comes and everything will reveal itself...
 
a part of me is scared because i really don't know the outcome of that event...
 
willl i ever be the same? will the circumstances in my life change? can i handle the consequences of the decisions i made?
 
a part of me, a really big part tells me that i need to do this...
 
how can i move on if i won't this? i will not live my life looking back at the past telling myself, "oh i wish i did this or that"
 
no i will not live my life like that...
 
when my friend died a few years ago i know that my life would forever changed...
 
when he died i started thinking how death was as real as life...
 
i keep thinking i'm going to live my life for me...
 
i'll live my life without regrets...
 
with that thought imprinted things started to happen...
 
i had the courage to quit school even if all of the expectations are on me...
 
i found my dream and i know now what i want to do with my life...
 
i opened my heart to love and all of the things that comes with it...
 
i started to live my life for myself...
 
the thing about this is that i'm doing it on my own... and i dont need anyone to make all of this for me...
 
i'm doing this alone...
 
my journey so far has is on the rough path...
 
i'm on the process of learning the lessons along the way...
 
it's hard because there's no guide book to what i'm doing with my life right now... instead i experinced everything the first hand...
 
maybe someday the right time will come and i would finally reveal it all...
 
a promise i made to myself...
 
and maybe when that day comes a better me will come out...
 
stronger, wiser and more optimistic me...
 
 
 
 
 
 
keep on blogging!!!
 
 
 


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  • fragglesrock said on Oct 30, 2009....
    Boy don't I WISH I had a guide book too :)  The NTF guide of Fraggles :)  I agree with you about not wanting to look back someday and say "What if I had tried/done that?" Take risks, live big!
  • uniquely-ironic said on Oct 30, 2009....
    a very good promise to make.  There are very few do overs in life.
  • Hegemone said on Oct 30, 2009....
    Well, until then, that better, stronger, more optimistic you is in the making, so that's a good thing too.  Best of luck on fulfilling your promise to yourself Queenie!  :-)
  • pusscat said on Oct 30, 2009....
    I love the way you write queenie.  It is just so raw and honest.  Sometimes I think if there was a guidebook for life it would spoil the journey.  Even the bad parts teach us so much about ourselves and the other people that are with us.  You are already a strong lady so it is not a strong you that will merge but a STRONGER you :-)
  • Me-Myself&I said on Oct 30, 2009....

    nice post Queenie. (hug) i hope you all the best in everything/anything you do!

    oh, i just saw where the 4th storm of the month has hit you.... head on too. i hope you and yours are weathering it ok. take care. you're in my thoughts.

  • queenparanoia said on Oct 31, 2009....
    fragglesrock: take risk, live big! i like that fraggles babe... and so true... :-)
     
    uniquely: that's why i'm making the best out of everything in life.... :-)
     
    hegemone: thankyou hegemone... ;-)
     
    pusscat: glad you ike my post pusscat. a stringer me will survive... :-)
     
    memyself: yes there was a storm but it's okay now. nothing to be worried about... ;-)
  • MsBradford07 said on Oct 31, 2009....
    I agree, that is a great post and it makes you think. I am so glad that you living life and making your own rules. I hope that great things happen in your life.
  • queenparanoia said on Oct 31, 2009....
    msbradford: thank you msbradford... ;-)

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