• Me-Myself&I said on Oct 29, 2009....

  (hug) bless your heart. hey it might not be all your fault, the body changes so with diabets.

  i'm on this herbal thingie these days, i quess harvesting some and reading my books has sparked something. so...

  have you ever tried Fenugreek. the ancient greeks and romans used it to help treat diabets. research shows that the fengreek seeds not only lower blood glucose but reduce insulin levels.....lowering cholesterol and triglycerides while increasing the good cholesterol....it's  50 percent fiber that absorbs the glucose from your small intestine.

  cool herb CW!

  don't you be giving in now! this will pass too CW! keep busy and hey, not all folks are the same .... nor react the same with health problems. if you feel better eating a certain way... so be it. but don't even wish to be taking from the earth....not yet!

  i wish you luck in controlling this terrible illness. do your best and stop kicking yourself! it's painful to watch. ;~o take care ~see ya 

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  MMI,
  I've been taking cinnamon since last week.  It is supposed to help sugar metabolism.  Before I was diabetic, I took various herbs to try and keep it away since it runs in my family.  It didn't do the job or I didn't.  One or the other.  I walked and tried to eat right.  I am so frustrated right now.  I'm blinking back tears right.  This emotion isn't going to help my blood sugar any.
  
  CW
  
  
  

• MsStar39 said on Oct 29, 2009....

  What was the a1c ?
  Just hang in there and don't beat yourself up CW.
  Are you exercising that also helps a lot.
  

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  MsStar,
  I went from 6.2 to 7.5!  I'm so crushed. I do get exercise, but that must not be enough either.
  
  I've been internalizing a lot of stuff lately.  Maybe that is causing it.  I just don't know.
  
  CW
  

• uniquely-ironic said on Oct 29, 2009....

  I think being hard on yourself and becoming upset will only worsen the situation.  Diabetes is a process, not a question and answer type condition.  Be kind to yourself.

• wombat said on Oct 29, 2009....

  Maybe that "good cry" is a good idea.  Sometimes people need the stress release of a good cry....then start on a new plan that you feel works for you. I'm still after hubby who's going to the gym, but not enough.  Still trying to watch what he eats, but not all the time.  You just have to find your own way and no one can tell you by harping on you, and no sense harping on yourself, either.  I know you can do this. 

  {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}

• Lucytorial said on Oct 29, 2009....

  There is nothing wrong with having a high protein diet as long as its zero fat and high in the right motivators for your motabolism.  Carbs can be okay too its finding the right ones.
   
  Stress will make your store a whole bunch of ugly shit making your body do weird things.  Emotionally CW you need to relax, learn how to zen out of it.  Doing that is another matter entirely, I know, I have the same problem.

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  uni,
  I realize that this disease will have it's ups and downs, but it is so hard not to get discouraged.  The fear wells in me.  I don't want anything else to go wrong with me in this process.
  
  wombat,
  Maybe it is, but probably not.  With me, emotions whether they be from excitement or nervousness spike my blood sugar.  The pressure to tame them is enormous.
  
  I'm feeling frustrated. 
  
  CW
  

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  Lucy,
  I know that high protein is good for you.  I do my best to have lean cuts of meat.  I am far from perfect in that regard though since we eat meat that has been raised here on the farm and butchered by the in-laws.  90% of it is hamburger.  I do supplement with chicken, turkey and fish.
  
  No sugar, low salt, low fat.  That's what I try to eat with the occasional fall off the wagon. 
  
  I know there is a lot of truth to the stress part.  I meditate every day or every other day.  I wish I could overcome it.
  
  CW
  

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  Thanks to all of you for being supportive.  I'm feeling like a failure with that big of a jump.  I've never been good with food and I am a little overwhelmed right now.  I'll be better in a while.
  
  CW
  

• writergrrl said on Oct 29, 2009....

  Don't fret so much over it. Remember, it'll always fluctuate and not much you can do about it but just learn how to deal. It'll go back down don't worry. Just relax, drink some tea, knit, and try not to stress out. I hope you feel better soon. (>' x '<) Kittin givin hugs : p

• dyingman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  Protein is NOT all that good.  It can weaken bone structure and as you noted, it isn't lo cal so there are better choices.
  
  
  Fiber is a diabetic's best friend.  It slows absorption of glucose into the bloodstream which prevents insulin spikes that characterize diabetes.
  
  
  When you mention how unsatisfying low carb diets are, I am under the impression that some people get an emotional high from the sugar rush that triggers insulin spikes.  Interestingly, I heard a story on NPR about a drug combination of a mood drug called bupropion (sold under the name "Wellbutrin") and an alcoholism drug called naltrexone (known sometimes as "Revia" or Depade") which idicated it gave solid performance in assisting weight loss.
  
  
  This fits with my theory precisely.  The alcohol dependence drug removes the reward of the sugar high while the mood enhancer makes the loss of ones addiction bearable.
  
  
  I don't know if you're on the heavy side or not (most diabetics are), and I'm not saying this would be a good idea, but I thought I'd share it.
  
  
  High fiber sources come from veggies and whole grains.  To a lesser degree, fruit.  The more pellet-like the grain, the more fiber you're getting.  Easiest to prepare are wild rice, millet, and quinoa.  Millet has an almost cous-cous texture to it.  You'll want to make them with broth and salt.  If your doc has you on low salt, the benefit of the high fiber content should offset the potential risk of sodium enough to satisfy him.
  
  

  
  

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  writergrrl,
  The number comes from an average of my blood sugar over the past three months.   I will try to eat better and see what happens.
  
  dyingman,
  I had been doing something similar to what you suggest with the grains before.  I was including long grain and wild rice in my diet.  Then I got the "let's do less carbs" speech.  I've tried that and it's not such a great success.  I'm not crazy about salad.  So,  I should probably be more creative about vegetables in general.  I add tomatoes to many of the dishes I make.
  
  I am a bit chunky.  However, I think a lot of my eating triggers are emotional.  I have found "comfort" in the wrong place. 
  
  I will ask my doctor about the combination of drugs. 
  
  CW
  

• MsStar39 said on Oct 29, 2009....

  CW have you heard that adding apple cider vinegar to your drinks or salad helps a lot, I add it to my juice or water everyday.

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 29, 2009....

  MsStar,
  I have and I've tried it, but it's not a taste or smell that I can handle very well.  Thank you for the suggestion though.
  
  CW
  

• Hegemone said on Oct 29, 2009....

  I'm so sorry to hear that.  I know you really were trying your damnedest, and I know this has got to have you upset beyond all get out.  I wish there was something I could do, say, or suggest that would help but off the top of my head I've got nothing, or I've got nothing that hasn't already been suggested, or that you don't already know. 
  
  Beyond that, I'm not diabetic and don't know a whole whole lot about it, besides perusing your blog and seeing practical application of my MIL.  I just wonder, with you mentioning that it takes a great deal to reign in your emotions, if that energy couldn't be put to a different way of channeling those emotions such that they're not building up on you, but yet you don't have to bottle them.  Have you ever angry knitted/crocheted?  I know it might turn out into a mess, but you could make a special set of yarn and whatnot just for that.  I know that may not be what you want to do, BUT, you get what I mean.  If it won't just wind you up worse of course, because that obviously won't do either.  I'm going to go to the drawing board and think on this a bit, but know that I am here for ya, and I wish that you could have an easier road than the one you're on.  ((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 30, 2009....

  Hege,
  I understand where you are coming from, but I don't want to become an angry knitter.  It gives me too much pleasure to do that.  I try to take deep breaths and meditate.  I need to work my exercise in.  I know I'm going to get scolded on that.
  
  CW
  

• fragglesrock said on Oct 30, 2009....

  In your comment to Me-My you mention that you have been taking cinnamon since last week...I mis-read that as you have been taking CINNABON since last week...I thought..."I don't think that taking cinnamin buns is good for the A1C" and then I realized what you ACTUALLY wrote and I actually laughed out loud here at my desk!
   
  I know how important it is to you and how hard you try to keep your numbers low...I don't want to offer any advice because I think you are pretty sound on your nutrition...I just wish for you happier, more stress-free surroudings.  I also think I have read that you don't get much cheering on from the Farmer in the Dell?

• CreativeWoman said on Oct 30, 2009....

  fraggles,
  I WISH I could manage this with Cinnabon's.  That might be pretty tasty.  lol
  
  You are right about the Farmer in the Dell.  Just today when I told him I was lowering my prices in my Etsy shop, he said, "Well, you don't want to get so busy that you can't do anything else."  And when I asked if he would display a window cling for me in his pickup window he said, "I need to get new tires for that pickup."   Huh?  It was the old guilt trip that something that costs around $5 could go towards his new tires. 
  
  Know what I did in defiance?
  
  I ordered myself another pair of Crocs in a fancy clog look.   I'll tell him they are rubber ...  just like his freakin tires.  :-)
  
  He's got money for his tires, but does that guilt trip crap all the time unless it is farm related.
  
  CW
  
  

• queenparanoia said on Nov 01, 2009....

  {{{{{HUG}}}}}}

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