Well Benny caught me taking E, and there's really no way to deny it.  Being te awesome dude he is, he's helping me get out of it.  Not the  easiest thing.  Only one day and I'm already getting high to a dangerous point.  I'm really fucked up.

 

I decided to say "What the fuck" to my old life.  I am starting over.  I'm going to attempt to keep the true friends that have stuck with me through everything.  No, I'm not exactly going to "forget" the other friends I had, as cutting off relationships is a very difficult thing for me to do.  But I know that I can make better friends and surround myself with loving people.  The new school is helping to start my "new life".  New people, new projects..new everything.  My family is calming down a bit and are continuing to do so, but it'll take time before they're completely back to normal, if they ever were. xP

 

Another thing.  I myself am changing.  Not completely, because I've been told numerous times by my close friends, "Dude, never change."  I'm a sarcastic person, and I love to make people laugh, which is the reason for their comments.  I'm not changing this; I'm changing how much information i'm letting out to other people.  I used to think ranting and lettingstuff out was a good thing to do, and I still think so.  But sitting people down and making them listen to you go on and on about how depressing your life is, is not at all fair to them, and I realize now how much damage I've caused.  I can't take back everything I said, but I'm trying my best to not do that anymore and filter my information better.  There are most certainly more healthy ways to let out your problems.  (Um, hello?  The point of a blog?  xPP)  For any of my friends who are reading this right now (I know you read it.  Don't deny it.), I very sincerly apologize.  I'm kind of a slow learner...in case you haven't noticed that already. xD.

 

Well, with all this "new" going on, why not change the way I look?  No, I'm not shaving my head, I would never ina million years do that.  I'm going to cut it again, well you kind of have to.  Otherwise you're just gonna end up with unhealthy hair. xP  I'm also dying it again.  Let's see.  I went from:

 

1. Black hair (my natural colour)

2. Light brown

3. darker brown

4. dark red (current colour)

 

I'm thinking dark brown on my top layers, and black on the bottom layers.  I think it'll look good. =]  Hopefully.  xD.

 

Anyways.  I really need to get to my homework ; i have lots.  @.@

 

Oh, how I miss the old days, when homework didn't seem so stressful, when I could sing on to MSN saying, "DUUUUUDEEE.  OMFG.  GUESS. WHAT.".  I want to go back to that so fucking badly, it hurts. 

 

All love,

-AJ