that same day my Master learned that the other slave was cheating on Her...again...  wow was that heartbreaking.  Now i know you all must think how excited i was but on the contrary i know my Master loves the other slave and felt very betrayed.  I felt these same things for my Master, i never want Her hurting.  Especially by a piece of shit.  Well She was upset very upset for two days, that fri and sat.  in those two days i was told how sorry She was or putting me through that stuff that She could have lost me for that piece of shit and how She knew She was giving the other slave special treatment hoping she would not betray Her. well i thought it was over.  all the promises She made me and made Herself thought that was it.  Well on sun She didnt really talk to me at all, She kept saying Her phone was messed up.  come to find out She was talking to the other slave all day.  which ok whatever work the stuff out dont know why She had to lie to me about it though.  anyways She tells me that She doesnt want me to be with Her that night. She wanted to be alone.  Then later on She calls me and tells me how the other slave (we will call her POS ok yes i know that is horrible but thats all i got at the moment lol)  and Her will be dating now and i asked what that meant She said that  She had not given POS a fair chance to be with Her so it only made sense she cheated (keep in mind they have been together almost 3 years and POS has cheated and lied many times)  Then She tells me that i am Her slave and will continue to be one and so forth that no matter what She does i will not leave

 

I agreee with this but we made an agreement in the begining that i wont stick around for lying or cheating

 

well in a matter of 2 days She lied to me 8 times and She even went back on Her own morals and fucked POS which in my opinion lying to yourself is worse than someone else

 

i havent been allowed to be with Her since sat night and its now wed She wont really talk to me either and She just sent me a message saying She doesnt know what the fuck to do and this is the first message of the day

 

everytime i express my hurt Her response is... "you are a slave you are my slave and you will be that for as long as i want"

 

She knows me all to well She knows that She can say stuff like that and it will break my heart cuz i dont want to disappoint Her i dont want to disappoint who i really am either

 

this is the hard part i have made a promise to myself to not be with people that are obssesive liars and cheaters... believe it or not i am a very honest person even though i might know how much the truth might hurt someone

 

i also made a life commitment as a slave

.......

 

well fuck this whole post She just sent this to me

 

M- "I have to see where this goes with her and she'll probably break my heart but oh well its what i deserve"

 

P- "yes she knows you have told her this but are you saying this again cuz its different?  you saying you are going to be exclusive with her now? or something else?"

 

M- "I cant ask you to wait for me cuz she might not fuck up.  But we both know she will and when she does i will come for you"

 

so like i said fuck this post i dont really need any advice for how i can work this out in my head.... this named, branded, and collared slave is left alone once again

 

idk if She reads this or if She ever will but there is so much i wanna say i am sch a sarcastic person and i have withheld that obviously since it is very disrespectful even though what i say is true i just dont do it properly

 still i sit here with my fingers lingering over the keys i cant bring myself to say anything im still madly in love with Her and god damn this hurts!

 

i had all my suspiscions in the begining but i said no She is different She will show me just like I will show Her how different i am...... well i showed Her but She didnt show me

 

She ended up being like the rest..... She was so much more... She was my Master