I see a wonderful, pretty home. It is filled with magic. There are plants all around. Nothing much matches but the colors and charm make it a home.
I have everything i need, it maybe not the best of things but it all works!
My pets all live in harmony.
I have more clothes then i know what to do with.
My cabinets are full right along with my fridge.
Plus my truck sits on fill. I even had the money to have my truck worked on. I had a tune-up, new plugs and wires. I even got new brakes from rotors to drums. I was told that i had an angel riding with me. They couldn't believe i hadn't broke down or found that my truck wasn't going to stop.
I'm already longing for the summer warmth. I'll miss working in the dirt. But now i'll finish what i started. I'll craft with my dried flowers and gourds. It will be my enjoyment while passing the long hours of winter days.
My marriage is .... working! Through our talks, forgiveness and both of us trying .... it's working.
Yesterday i had a visit from a good friend. She was commenting on how jealous she was of my life and marriage. How we stay active and do so much together. She wanted that kind of love!
I went into shock. I traveled from one moment in time to the next. Remembering all that both of us has gone through. I opened my mouth and told her i knew without a doubt that no other could please me more when it came to life style, hobbies and goals in life. :~o These words shocked me.... the truth rolled back out my mouth without thought.
I told her that i have searched for a passionate love most of my life. The love that you read about or see in the movies. I may not have found such a passionate love but i may never. I have the things that make a good relationship, a good partner in this life of mine. Sure there are things that i just don't like about my man but.... i am sure there are things that he himself wishes i would do or to be a certain way.
I do love my man, not in the ways i have always wanted to feel. huh There are things that still need mending. I don't know if we will make it but for now.... i have come to terms with my life and who i am and what i want. wow a sigh of relief..................!
