So we finally figured out whats been delaying my mom's unemployment checks. Its her last job, the VA (don't ask me what it stands for). They've been dragging their feet for about two fucking weeks now. TWO. WHOLE. FUCKING. WEEKS!!!
But luckily(?) my uncle- and I use that word loosely, VERY loosely- gave use a whole 40 buckaroos to buy groceries with. Oh what fucking joy.
So off to the store we go, and I'm already disappointed and frustrated about the money situation, so its not obvious that I had a shitty time going shopping.
Firstly, obviously we couldn't get much of anything. Secondly, I was getting angrier and angrier at all the little fuckers and their parents walking in front of me and stopping, taking their sweet ass time to look at something and not even get it. And then more little fuckers, too busy stuffing their fat little faces with chips to watch where the fuck they're going, walking in front of me, making me have to move so I don't bump into them. Then we get to the meat section and me and my mom had to make a quick decision on what to leave and swap. We pick up some ground chuck , some cheese, and then went to go check out. As we're walking some ass wipe old dude gave my mom this really dirty look because she had to squeeze around him and his wife, who seemed to be distracted by all the floaty particles in fucking air. And just then I realized how pissed I was. And it took every fiber in my fucking being not to punch the shit out of him. But instead I just flip him the bird and caught up to my mom.
So finally we check out and low and behold, we go over. So we end up putting at least five things back. And it just really brought everything home. All this time I had been trying to keep my head up, but I'm starting to think I can't. It just takes way too much energy. Energy I don't have to spare, because 50% goes to just getting up and going to school. And the other 50% goes to just getting through the day...
So now I'm at a loss... Again. And I'm struggling to figur out what to do, and how to do it. Any suggestion?
P.S. I'd really appriciate it if no one gave me any useless clichés.
