Apprantly you were numb. That is all. I guess youra great actor, an amazing liar. I love love love wasting a year of my life giving my all when I guess it was nothing to you. No, that's not fair. You really are hurt. And I'm sorry that this has happened! I really really am! I know your just defending yourself, but you have to let all of us who care in!
I wish you didn't have to throw everything away in order to move on. It's... not how I do things and I guess it works for you.. but I question how you can learn from your past if you try and erase as much of it as you can?
I'm not over you Chris. I never truly will be. You meant the world to me, mean the world to me. It pains me to see you this way. I wish I could take it all away but I can't I helped place it there. I hope you will take my advice and try be positive and happy. I wish you luck in everything you do, and want to say that I can't wait till we can be friends.
No lovely soulcast members I didn't accidentally put my Best Friends real name. I know he will not read this. I just wanted to.. put it out there in the world... so maybe. No he won't see it ever. He's erasing me but. *sigh* It's more personal you know?
