3 years...
yup ive been on this site for 3 years...
i could say i'm one of the old members now but i'm not old... LOL...
3 years of blogging in a site that i call home...
actually yesterday was my blogging anniversary but i got lazy. got really tired and didnt really had time to think on what to blog...
anyway... again...
wow...
3 years...
3 years of blogging...
3 years of friendship and love...
3 years of knowing my self through these posts...
and i'm still growing... still learning... still reaching and working for my dreams... still blogging...
for those who doesnt know the history of me here in soulcast...
this is my blogging history...
i started soulcast when my friend suggested that i check out a site where you can blog for free and people will pay you if they read and like your post!!! (of course that shit didn't happen).
i got tired of blogging in friendster and in blogspot because most of the people that reads my post are only my friends and family... in short not many of them...
i admit i'm an attention whore. being the second in the family i suffer from middle child syndrome. the responsible yet attention seeking sibling... LOL...
plus i love to write my thoughts. i have a diary but nobody reads it...
i want something that people can read and can relate to...
and so i found anonymous blogging...
i love it...
i could blog anything here and no one knows who i am in real life... i mean i live in a conservative country... and there some things i want to talk about that nobody here doesnt...
like virginity for my age (yet very horny) and masturbation...
from movies to music to life's philosophy to religion to politics to anything under the sun...
i love it...
and then i started reading other people posts...
i found friends...
i found people i could relate to even if they live on the other of the world...
i learn that even if we have different cultures, or religions or race we all have one thing in common...
we all rant about the same things... LOL...
and at the same people here started to learn from me...
not to be a brag or anything but i put my country, the philippines on soulcast map...
speaking of that i was also happy that there are some filipino bloggers here that i instantly have connection with... ;-)
i blog almost everything about me... almost because there are some things that i could not and probably would be better not share with everyone...
i blog about my triumps, my defeats, uselessness... everything i could blog about...
most of the famous blogs that i made are the emotional ones...
like when i quit school after five and half years....
like when i fell in love with someone here and then got my heart broken but still inlove with someone here and oh it's so complicated... LOL...
like finding my dreams and realizng i want to be a pastry chef or anything about the culinary world...
like why i want to write my emotions out...
a few months before i found soulcast a tragic accident happened to my life...
me and my classmates went to a two day vacation in one of a resort here in the philippines...
it was all fun until my friend tragically died...
he was only 19... he drowned...
i was totally devestated when he died.... and at those moments especially the first week after he died i was contemplating suicide. i will never forget the day when i was saved by a phone call from a friend...
after that my life completely changed...
at first i shut down everyone away from my life. i felt like i wanted to die because i blamed myself for his death even if it wasn't anyone's fault... it was an accident...
through blogging i have found the emotional release that i needed...
like those moments alone in my room and i was so scared that the only way would make me sane was if i wrote my emotions out...
another reason why i choose the name queenparanoia. i was becoming paranoid...
and blogging kept me sane...
not only that blogging helped me in lots of ways...
my english improved... english is like my third language but it completely improved through blogging...
i know myself more than 3 years before...
i'm stronger, more self confident, and more positive through blogging...
so yeah soulcast is an important part of my life...
and i could see that i would spend more years here... (well if they don't shut down the place)...
one of my goals in life is to meet my soulcast friends in person.. (to a certain filipino blogger here who promised a cup of coffe with me).
well who knows? i might go to some places like japan, netherlands, uk, south africa, USA (hehehehehe) and meet my soulcast friends...
who knows???
LOL...
so today i'm celebrating my 3rd year as a soulcaster...
i'll continue on blogging...
and like i always say...
keep on blogging!!!
