ever had that feeling that you are trying soo hard to reach someone else but they just keep moving away from your reach? That you have done everything you can do to be able to understand and get  where they are ,what was the source of their sadness or depression, and wanted it soo much to be the one person to help them through it, and yet no matter what u do, you're still failing. and failing at something you wanted soo much, something you'd give your life to, is soo damn miserable.

Each time I realized I run short, I'm in tears. I cry as hard as I could if only it will make my frustration go away. I feel like i'm the most useless person on earth for not being able to make the person I love feel better.

I don't know why I always end up trying soo damn hard and still fail. I never wanted to care this much. I know it won't do me good.

For I also know that my love knows no bound and I'll be willing to do anything to make them happy. Even if it means moving on and letting go. But God, how can that be, will they be loved as much As I do love them? Why do I keep failing at something I care soo much.

why do I have mastery at accomplishing things that doesn't mean half as much to me. and fail hopelessly at things that occupy my mind at all times.

I'm soo tired of this, I don't know how much more can I take of this miserable useless existence of not being able to make the people I love happy. Please God, help.